i have realized
that i have been going into my relations with a lot of people
and a lot of other things
with absolutely no intentions whatsoever
(impression, depression, knowledge, or whatever)
i have never given people such a blank slate in all of my life
i think sometimes i just want there to be no animosity
all i can affect is my side of the fence
and this brain appears motionless, buts its spinning
and the smallest things set it off
but whats inside generally stays there
at this moment i am laying down typing with my laptop on my stomache, staring at the celing
as my roommate so frequently says, "Humans are WIERD"
when the hell did the pretension shit hit the fan?
i hope i had nothing to do with it
because these arent my words
theyve been said before (clearly)
lmfao today dad told me "maybe you should start making music"...in all seriousness. AHHA
i have managed to imbed things. in programming we call it pocketing. whateverrrrr