despite evidence to the contrary, this was not a bad day.
so first of all, camille left today. she's going or gone to BYU &next time i see her it'll be christmas &we'll be strangers. for the first few moments, anyway. but i'm not so worried, somehow.
and i went to a mary kay party. it was not the thrill of my life, &everyone gossiped about people i dont know. but i also talked to laura gautreau - one of the nicest people ever - &she gave me tips about college, &i told her some of my anxieties about this fall &she told me hers, too.
and finally, finally, i said what i needed to say to the person i needed to say it to. &it wasnt even hard to say it; it was just admitting that i needed to say it that was difficult. because i am difficult. now it's done, &i'm heartbroken, but i just might live. &besides that fateful conversation, i chatted with some really cool guy today, which was pleasant, &i got to borrow these awesome CDs that make me happy just listening to them. [thanks again]
so what i'm trying &maybe failing to say is that although the bad seems to have outweighed the small doses of good...... well, appearances are deceiving. i refuse to declare this a Bad Day, because it wasnt. &while this sounds very mary poppins of me, you cant forget the fact that i'm going to be okay.
&besides, i hear God's on my side today. sort of like he was yesterday &tomorrow &the day after that. actually, exactly like that.
if mercy falls upon the broken and the poor, dear Father, i will see you there on distant shores.
and i went to a mary kay party. it was not the thrill of my life, &everyone gossiped about people i dont know. but i also talked to laura gautreau - one of the nicest people ever - &she gave me tips about college, &i told her some of my anxieties about this fall &she told me hers, too.
and finally, finally, i said what i needed to say to the person i needed to say it to. &it wasnt even hard to say it; it was just admitting that i needed to say it that was difficult. because i am difficult. now it's done, &i'm heartbroken, but i just might live. &besides that fateful conversation, i chatted with some really cool guy today, which was pleasant, &i got to borrow these awesome CDs that make me happy just listening to them. [thanks again]
so what i'm trying &maybe failing to say is that although the bad seems to have outweighed the small doses of good...... well, appearances are deceiving. i refuse to declare this a Bad Day, because it wasnt. &while this sounds very mary poppins of me, you cant forget the fact that i'm going to be okay.
&besides, i hear God's on my side today. sort of like he was yesterday &tomorrow &the day after that. actually, exactly like that.
if mercy falls upon the broken and the poor, dear Father, i will see you there on distant shores.