passing thoughts
it's been a very long day for me...i feel drained simply b/c i had so much chemistry related math homework to do, lol, but i finally got it done and now i'm just sitting here relaxing. i haven't written a real entry in a while i don't think, so i decided this would be a wonderful time to do it.
the weather is kinda cool again, but still very springlike and it rains all the time so that you know spring really is here, like we could forget anyway. i tend to think of spring as a time of re-birth and changes and all those other wonderful things. i tend to think of spring as a time of love...i am happy that things finally seem as if they are fitting together or beginning to fit together in my life.
yes, there are mean kids at school, but i have many people who love me and appreciate me in my life and that's really what matters at the end of the day...yes, i know that sounds like i should never complain, but i am human and sometimes things do bother me and sometimes i do have to vent, but i am so happy that i am finally expressing emotions that i never really did before...i have grown up so much, but even though, i still have more growth to do.
i can't believe that i'm going to be a senior...whoa...time really flies...i have memories of first grade and now i'm almost ready for college...things change, relationships change, we learn and we live...i am not as close to my mother as i was when i was a little girl, but i love her just as much, if not more b/c now i can really appreciate her. i know that when she does things for me, she does them for the best, even if they might not seem like they are the best to me, she means well and i know that. that doesn't mean that sometimes my feelings aren't hurt or that i don't understand, but i know she means well.
in my life i have made friends and lost friends, but that's life. i have spent time with people that weren't the best influences and people that have really changed my life. my life has been interesting so far and im really excited about the possibility of meeting new people and doing new things...and i can see success in my future.
girlie and i always talk about being together forever, we'll see. it seems very likely, simply b/c we're us and we know us and how nobody else is for us, lol but it's one day at a time, one kiss at a time, one hug at a time, one talk at a time, but i hope to one day roll over and be able to put my arm around her, we'll see.