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ive decided something, im never going to speak my mind ever ever again. this is it.
im not here to cause drama, im not here to do anything.
my feelings are all wrong and im a worthless piece of shit, i should have remembered that,
i can never do anything right its funny actually
i cry, i get blamed
i cut myself - i get blamed
i take something to help me sleep - i get blamed
i start taking pills to help me cope with my own fucking mind and i still get blamed
this whole fucking life has to end for me
i cant do anything to please you, ever!!
you tell me time and time again when i get upset that all you do is love me,.. when i speak my mind for one fucking minute and its not okay with you
there obviously isn't a problem ohhh nooooooooooooo no problem at all except all i did was hurt you, what about how i feel?
i cant cook you food right when your feeling down, i cant tuck you in bed right because im just not perfect enough for you.
what the fuck do i have to do.. and to top everything off, apparently i use you for things? i offered to give everything back and you said "no, it was a gift" and then turn around a coupple months later and tell me that im using you for everything you've got. im sick of it.
i dont think i will ever accept a gift rom anyone and be able to take it for what it is A GIFT im sorry
im so fucking sorry that you had to meet me because of all the pain that i supposedly put onto you.
i cant do anything right here, i dont know where else to turn
youre supposed to be the person that i can lean on.. but yet i cant talk to you..
i honestly truely deeply and whole heartedly wish that i would just fucking die already so that i could stop hurting people like i apparently do all the fucking time
the funny thing is, this entry is all honest things that may not have all applied to this week or last, but ill still get in trouble and everything will once again be all my fault just for speaking up.
someone please, if you love me you will kill me, i really dont want to live anymore.
im not here to cause drama, im not here to do anything.
my feelings are all wrong and im a worthless piece of shit, i should have remembered that,
i can never do anything right its funny actually
i cry, i get blamed
i cut myself - i get blamed
i take something to help me sleep - i get blamed
i start taking pills to help me cope with my own fucking mind and i still get blamed
this whole fucking life has to end for me
i cant do anything to please you, ever!!
you tell me time and time again when i get upset that all you do is love me,.. when i speak my mind for one fucking minute and its not okay with you
there obviously isn't a problem ohhh nooooooooooooo no problem at all except all i did was hurt you, what about how i feel?
i cant cook you food right when your feeling down, i cant tuck you in bed right because im just not perfect enough for you.
what the fuck do i have to do.. and to top everything off, apparently i use you for things? i offered to give everything back and you said "no, it was a gift" and then turn around a coupple months later and tell me that im using you for everything you've got. im sick of it.
i dont think i will ever accept a gift rom anyone and be able to take it for what it is A GIFT im sorry
im so fucking sorry that you had to meet me because of all the pain that i supposedly put onto you.
i cant do anything right here, i dont know where else to turn
youre supposed to be the person that i can lean on.. but yet i cant talk to you..
i honestly truely deeply and whole heartedly wish that i would just fucking die already so that i could stop hurting people like i apparently do all the fucking time
the funny thing is, this entry is all honest things that may not have all applied to this week or last, but ill still get in trouble and everything will once again be all my fault just for speaking up.
someone please, if you love me you will kill me, i really dont want to live anymore.