Woo hoo woo hoo hoo and all that jazz.
If i listen to this song much longer then i may explode, its just so dam addictive, lol. Its the woo hoo hoo one of the carling advert by the 5,6,7,8s. Its also in kill bill which just so happens to be one kick ass film. But im not just going to write about that song im also going to talk about me, which i think is probably the point of a livejournal.
Well, today its wednesday, i went to derby uni today to find out what i wanna do with my life, didnt help AT ALL. A waste of a day of my life. I already know what i wanna do, its just how i achieve it thats the problem. Ah dear. Ive been thinking about maria today, i kinda miss her, i think shes in bristol or somewhere like that, but i do actually miss her craziness and feel bad for being such a bitch to her lately. Guess i was just snappy. The whole going off to uni thing is making me worry and try to value my friends more than i do. Its just sunk in that soon i wont see them again and im going to have to step out of my 'long eaton box' as michelle says, and mingle. Oh god, the thought of actually socialising without shelly or maria to be with me really scares me. I think i need to re-evaluate my life and whats important in it, what my priorities are, how i treat people and what i aim to achieve. Andy is obviously really important to me and i have to think about him when i think about what uni to go to, coz if i go far away then we'll both be really upset and i will really miss him but also, the course i want to do is in bath, which is about three hours drive away and i really love the course and it looks so cool, i dont want to miss out on the opportunity to go there. I might have a gap year or i might not, everyone is telling me not to, the only reason i was gonna have one is for andy, but i dont know if thats the right reason, i think that we are strong enough to last through university. I dont really NEED a gap year and i dont particularly want one, the only reason i would have one is to get a flat with andy, and if i do that then the uni wont let me apply for a deferral coz its not a good enough reason. Dammit. Plus, another dilemma is that if i do take a gap year and then go to uni, then i will have to pay an extra 9 grand in tuition fees. what a load of poo. I really want to move in with andy but i also dont want to feel like ive been held back from anything. (andy if youre reading this then it doesnt mean i love you any less, it means i want the opportunity to do the best for myself and i still love you with all my heart).
So basically im in a bit of a muddle about things, not about my feelings for anyone but about my future and what the hell im going to do and how the hell i will pay off all the humoungus debt im about to accumulate. poo.
I suppose thats all i have to say for now, fairwell amigos.
xx
Well, today its wednesday, i went to derby uni today to find out what i wanna do with my life, didnt help AT ALL. A waste of a day of my life. I already know what i wanna do, its just how i achieve it thats the problem. Ah dear. Ive been thinking about maria today, i kinda miss her, i think shes in bristol or somewhere like that, but i do actually miss her craziness and feel bad for being such a bitch to her lately. Guess i was just snappy. The whole going off to uni thing is making me worry and try to value my friends more than i do. Its just sunk in that soon i wont see them again and im going to have to step out of my 'long eaton box' as michelle says, and mingle. Oh god, the thought of actually socialising without shelly or maria to be with me really scares me. I think i need to re-evaluate my life and whats important in it, what my priorities are, how i treat people and what i aim to achieve. Andy is obviously really important to me and i have to think about him when i think about what uni to go to, coz if i go far away then we'll both be really upset and i will really miss him but also, the course i want to do is in bath, which is about three hours drive away and i really love the course and it looks so cool, i dont want to miss out on the opportunity to go there. I might have a gap year or i might not, everyone is telling me not to, the only reason i was gonna have one is for andy, but i dont know if thats the right reason, i think that we are strong enough to last through university. I dont really NEED a gap year and i dont particularly want one, the only reason i would have one is to get a flat with andy, and if i do that then the uni wont let me apply for a deferral coz its not a good enough reason. Dammit. Plus, another dilemma is that if i do take a gap year and then go to uni, then i will have to pay an extra 9 grand in tuition fees. what a load of poo. I really want to move in with andy but i also dont want to feel like ive been held back from anything. (andy if youre reading this then it doesnt mean i love you any less, it means i want the opportunity to do the best for myself and i still love you with all my heart).
So basically im in a bit of a muddle about things, not about my feelings for anyone but about my future and what the hell im going to do and how the hell i will pay off all the humoungus debt im about to accumulate. poo.
I suppose thats all i have to say for now, fairwell amigos.
xx