Worst feeling in the world.
The Worst feeling in the world is being cheated on. It hurts so much.
Will cheated on me. Before he told me he liked Amanda, I thought it was just a crush. I thought he would get over it. I thought he was getting over her. He said he would dedicate his life to me. But apparently on Saturday that wasnt the case. I was even talking to him when he was Iming her. All of the things she said were horrible and he could have said No. Why didnt he say " dont do this Amanda". She knew we were dating. She told him he was being a good boyfriend. She said "if was just two people making each other happy" That line makes me so mad. I just wanna throw up when I hear the things she says. They are horrible. I cant believe Will didnt stop it. And the things he said to her.. I cant believe it. I trusted him, I gave him everything.. I spent so much time on him. I didnt think he was capable of that. Why was I so blind? how did i not see that? I cant believe it.. he said he wanted to have sex with her.. After all we've been through. I hate this. I went out with Anna last night to get my mind off it.. but I was so numb walking.. I didnt feel like myself. I had no feelings. Whats the point of being nice, you just get fucked over?
Amanda was my friend. We talked.. How could she do that? Why?
I really thought I could love him forever. We've been through so much. Friday was supposed to be our 1 Year Anniversary. I cant believe it. Why doesnt he feel guilty? Why did he do it? WHy didnt he say no?
Im broken.
Will cheated on me. Before he told me he liked Amanda, I thought it was just a crush. I thought he would get over it. I thought he was getting over her. He said he would dedicate his life to me. But apparently on Saturday that wasnt the case. I was even talking to him when he was Iming her. All of the things she said were horrible and he could have said No. Why didnt he say " dont do this Amanda". She knew we were dating. She told him he was being a good boyfriend. She said "if was just two people making each other happy" That line makes me so mad. I just wanna throw up when I hear the things she says. They are horrible. I cant believe Will didnt stop it. And the things he said to her.. I cant believe it. I trusted him, I gave him everything.. I spent so much time on him. I didnt think he was capable of that. Why was I so blind? how did i not see that? I cant believe it.. he said he wanted to have sex with her.. After all we've been through. I hate this. I went out with Anna last night to get my mind off it.. but I was so numb walking.. I didnt feel like myself. I had no feelings. Whats the point of being nice, you just get fucked over?
Amanda was my friend. We talked.. How could she do that? Why?
I really thought I could love him forever. We've been through so much. Friday was supposed to be our 1 Year Anniversary. I cant believe it. Why doesnt he feel guilty? Why did he do it? WHy didnt he say no?
Im broken.