whats eating brian novoa?

[xsmydbabyx]

sometimes i hate being in love with someone. there are too many feelings that accompany being in love. like hearing that the person you undoubtly truely love has a boyfriend or something like that it doesnt matter how long you broke up or what was said or what the circumstances were or how many girls youve hooked up to forget....i hate this feeling. i hate being in love. that sinking feeling you get where you feel almost completely worthless and insignificant and how your life just accumulated to this one moment of shittyness and loss of self worth. its absolutly miserable. so i shed maybe like 5 or 6 tears and slowly breathed for about minutes as i stared at nothing with my broken glasses and got over it because theyres really nothing you can do blah blah this sounds so fucking emo you know what i dont give a shit at least i have kind of a good understand of what real feelings are and how it feels to be in this position. the best thing that can happen is i can learn from it but i dont want to learn i want to hold my baby and take her away and be on a level where nobody can touch us.............im so fucking lame sometimes i hate myself as well...but i cant say im over it im not..its one of those things where you just gotta get on with your day and take that feeling put in a box and lock it up in your heart and mind where no one can touch and the only one who can ever get a glimpse of this side of you is that girl who all these feelings originate from. its so hard to find someone you care about these days. damn. damn. damn. im gonna get high now so i can forget about it ... fucking fuggitaboutit...
fucking butthead stupid girl of my dreams who i will never get over because shes so cute and i love her........miserable fucking heart of life. superjoint to happiness goodbye.

gilbert??hahahah gilberrrrrrrrrt..

wheres arnie....excuse me have you seen arnie??
gilllllllllllllllbert