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seriously
am i alive?
no. seriously. am i alive?
ASU was both the worst and best thing ever. i lost my voice on friday morning, had a huge number of people give me tips to get it back, my favorite was this girl who told me to turn my shower from hot to cold really fast and then get out and brush my teeth with luke warm water and then gargle salt water. she said the temperature makes the swelling go down. i dont know how that works..but i really appreciated her advice. my voice cooperated with me fine on friday and saturday. i think after all of my sems i got too cocky about my voice starting to come back and being able to talk normal and it punished me in the DI final. literally, the worst round i had all day, and the most important. way to go. the whole time i could barely get my words to come out loud enough for people to hear and so i wasn't focused on what i was doing, i didnt have any heart because i was so concentrated on my voice. i think the brilliant performance i gave in public speaking when i forgot my climax and just sat down was better than that DI final. big big big dissapointment.
buuuutttt...i had a lot of fun with everybody. i love all of my friends so much. i feel like im really starting to get to know them again and we'll all be separated at the end of this year. its really pretty heart breaking. i deffinately cried during warm ups on saturday. but beau made me feel a lot better by professing his love to me and my deep manly voice. it was cute.
aaannddd... all i want to do for the rest of the week is sit at home and play with my fucking clay and pasta machine. one acts?? what ev. making shit is sooo much more important.
what the heck should i do with my life?
am i alive?
no. seriously. am i alive?
ASU was both the worst and best thing ever. i lost my voice on friday morning, had a huge number of people give me tips to get it back, my favorite was this girl who told me to turn my shower from hot to cold really fast and then get out and brush my teeth with luke warm water and then gargle salt water. she said the temperature makes the swelling go down. i dont know how that works..but i really appreciated her advice. my voice cooperated with me fine on friday and saturday. i think after all of my sems i got too cocky about my voice starting to come back and being able to talk normal and it punished me in the DI final. literally, the worst round i had all day, and the most important. way to go. the whole time i could barely get my words to come out loud enough for people to hear and so i wasn't focused on what i was doing, i didnt have any heart because i was so concentrated on my voice. i think the brilliant performance i gave in public speaking when i forgot my climax and just sat down was better than that DI final. big big big dissapointment.
buuuutttt...i had a lot of fun with everybody. i love all of my friends so much. i feel like im really starting to get to know them again and we'll all be separated at the end of this year. its really pretty heart breaking. i deffinately cried during warm ups on saturday. but beau made me feel a lot better by professing his love to me and my deep manly voice. it was cute.
aaannddd... all i want to do for the rest of the week is sit at home and play with my fucking clay and pasta machine. one acts?? what ev. making shit is sooo much more important.
what the heck should i do with my life?