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Lately i have been thinking about how i am a very indecisive person. I am not 100% sure about anything in my life and seldom keep my mind on one thing, one goal. I think about things all at the same time, think too far in the future and get so frustrated i dont know what is what. I took a nap today, woke up and heard my mom's voice on the answering machine, i was expecting to open my eyes and be at their house, but instead i woke up in our apartment all alone and feeling a million miles away. I miss my family soo much sometimes. It seems they are the only ones who keep in touch, maybe it because they have too, and i cant even say its all my family, just my mom and dad, one sister and cousin. If it was up to me i most likely would have even less contact since i suck at making the effort. I feel like Binghamton is my home now, and this apartment too. But what happens if i go to cortland and graham to corning? will we move? will this actually work out and we get a house in a few years? I hate change, but yet i seem to be making it for myself. This is depressing, im going to go walk a few miles until i find some contentment.