Shun the non believers
I had a good day.
For some reason however I feel melancholy, maybe I'm just tired. I just feel like I'm changing soooo much so fast. In the last like year I've pulled a full turn in life. From being irresponsible and lazy, to joining the god damn army. It's so much!
A little overwhelmed, I think, because I'm on the cusp of a huge overhaul in life, the rest of my life is just over this next hill and I'm so close.
I'm pretty happy about who I am though. I'm strong enough a person to stay with someone and have no interest in any other person, which if you know me is not normal. I'm taking care of my family and in time more so. It helps me to take a little of their burden. My sisters and Bro in law are such good loving people and have such hard hard lives. I love helping them however I can, taking the dog, giving them money, watching my nieces. I wish I could do more.
My sister asked me today what I was going to do with my life, what my plans were. I couldn't really tell her because I only know what I want eventually, or rather what I'd dream to have. It's the same thing I've always wanted, a farm. Slightly changed since when I was young, but a farm none the less. A hundred acres, or more, and self sustaining. I want dogs and horses and a tree. Until that I don't really have anything.
So here are somethings I think I want.
-A small house in the city (or a city) big enough for Aaron, Myself, and maybe a few stragglers.
-A Ford pick up truck. I don't know why I've always wanted a truck, maybe it's nostalgic.
-A dog of my very own.
-An office.
Yeah I think I'm just tired, and a little over whelmed, But you'll be happy to know that my application should be finished the processing part in like, a few days, then I should know.
THINGS I CAN DO NOW!
-Run for 20 mins
-do 10 push ups (and maybe more!)
-25 sit ups (But I get sore in the ankles)
-sprint a block without losing my breath.
-fit into my old jeans again and they fall down
YAY!
For some reason however I feel melancholy, maybe I'm just tired. I just feel like I'm changing soooo much so fast. In the last like year I've pulled a full turn in life. From being irresponsible and lazy, to joining the god damn army. It's so much!
A little overwhelmed, I think, because I'm on the cusp of a huge overhaul in life, the rest of my life is just over this next hill and I'm so close.
I'm pretty happy about who I am though. I'm strong enough a person to stay with someone and have no interest in any other person, which if you know me is not normal. I'm taking care of my family and in time more so. It helps me to take a little of their burden. My sisters and Bro in law are such good loving people and have such hard hard lives. I love helping them however I can, taking the dog, giving them money, watching my nieces. I wish I could do more.
My sister asked me today what I was going to do with my life, what my plans were. I couldn't really tell her because I only know what I want eventually, or rather what I'd dream to have. It's the same thing I've always wanted, a farm. Slightly changed since when I was young, but a farm none the less. A hundred acres, or more, and self sustaining. I want dogs and horses and a tree. Until that I don't really have anything.
So here are somethings I think I want.
-A small house in the city (or a city) big enough for Aaron, Myself, and maybe a few stragglers.
-A Ford pick up truck. I don't know why I've always wanted a truck, maybe it's nostalgic.
-A dog of my very own.
-An office.
Yeah I think I'm just tired, and a little over whelmed, But you'll be happy to know that my application should be finished the processing part in like, a few days, then I should know.
THINGS I CAN DO NOW!
-Run for 20 mins
-do 10 push ups (and maybe more!)
-25 sit ups (But I get sore in the ankles)
-sprint a block without losing my breath.
-fit into my old jeans again and they fall down
YAY!