and you kissed me like you meant it
and the time on the clock when we realized its so late
and this walk that we shared together...
someday i will be a happy little girl. someday i won't feel like i have to be brave. someday i will be stronger and i won't be so scared. someday i won't laugh when all i want to do is cry, because sometimes you need to cry. someday i will succeed in everything. someday i will be the best in what i want to do. someday i will be able to afford the house in connecticut that i grew up in, and i will invite my friends to stay in the other houses on the property. melissa and nick can live in the cottage with all their children and the kids can run free and clinton and alex can live in the ledge, and because there are 3 rooms there, their wives can live there too. kevin and the love of his lifetime can live in the hilltop with the porch that overlooks the whole place and aaron and katie or whoever he marries can live in the cabin until they have a million children and have to move to montana. and i can live in the lodge and sleep in the bedroom i grew accustomed too, the room at the very end of the hall right next to the girl's bathroom with the window that overlooked the lake. and we can all grow old sitting on the porch looking at the mountains and watching the water sparkle. and i will share this with the love of my lifetime. i don't know who he is yet or if i have already found him, but one day, i will meet my soulmate and there will be rainbows and butterflies and we will be perfectly content staying up late holding hands and splashing in the lake and he will kiss my eyelids when i wake up in the morning and he will know everything that makes me who i am and he will love me for it and i won't be ashamed anymore. and i will sing all the time and dance around the kitchen and not go to bed until one in the morning because we can't tear ourselves from firefly catching. and i will never again think of these things that have hurt me so much, because he will know about them and he won't care and they can finally die. he won't care that i cry sometimes for no reason, he will wipe my tears and suggest we go for a walk and we will walk in the woods and he will tell me stories until i'm happy again. and i will look at the scars on my arms and think to myself, what a silly girl you once were to be so sad, how can you be so sad when someone loves you so much? and he will kiss my scars and say it's ok, i have them too, and show me a scar he might have got from a skateboard accident for all i know but i will smile from his acceptance. and late at night we will fall asleep in eachother's arms and be woken by the sun from the window. and i will have beautiful children with blue eyes because i have blue eyes and they will run around in the sun and become as blonde as i once was from the sun and be so tan. and i will grow old, and my grandchildren will play where i once played and i will chew ice like my grandma and wear boxers all the time and my love and i will die old together in our sleep, asleep in eachother's arms and no one will cry at our funeral because they will know we will always be happy because we were always together, because no one mattered more to us than the other. and they will laugh and tell stories of "that one time" and i will leave my property to my grandchildren and it will stay in my family forever and one day, my great great great great granddaughter will wish someone loved her as much as her great great great grandpa loved her great great great grandma.
and this walk that we shared together...
someday i will be a happy little girl. someday i won't feel like i have to be brave. someday i will be stronger and i won't be so scared. someday i won't laugh when all i want to do is cry, because sometimes you need to cry. someday i will succeed in everything. someday i will be the best in what i want to do. someday i will be able to afford the house in connecticut that i grew up in, and i will invite my friends to stay in the other houses on the property. melissa and nick can live in the cottage with all their children and the kids can run free and clinton and alex can live in the ledge, and because there are 3 rooms there, their wives can live there too. kevin and the love of his lifetime can live in the hilltop with the porch that overlooks the whole place and aaron and katie or whoever he marries can live in the cabin until they have a million children and have to move to montana. and i can live in the lodge and sleep in the bedroom i grew accustomed too, the room at the very end of the hall right next to the girl's bathroom with the window that overlooked the lake. and we can all grow old sitting on the porch looking at the mountains and watching the water sparkle. and i will share this with the love of my lifetime. i don't know who he is yet or if i have already found him, but one day, i will meet my soulmate and there will be rainbows and butterflies and we will be perfectly content staying up late holding hands and splashing in the lake and he will kiss my eyelids when i wake up in the morning and he will know everything that makes me who i am and he will love me for it and i won't be ashamed anymore. and i will sing all the time and dance around the kitchen and not go to bed until one in the morning because we can't tear ourselves from firefly catching. and i will never again think of these things that have hurt me so much, because he will know about them and he won't care and they can finally die. he won't care that i cry sometimes for no reason, he will wipe my tears and suggest we go for a walk and we will walk in the woods and he will tell me stories until i'm happy again. and i will look at the scars on my arms and think to myself, what a silly girl you once were to be so sad, how can you be so sad when someone loves you so much? and he will kiss my scars and say it's ok, i have them too, and show me a scar he might have got from a skateboard accident for all i know but i will smile from his acceptance. and late at night we will fall asleep in eachother's arms and be woken by the sun from the window. and i will have beautiful children with blue eyes because i have blue eyes and they will run around in the sun and become as blonde as i once was from the sun and be so tan. and i will grow old, and my grandchildren will play where i once played and i will chew ice like my grandma and wear boxers all the time and my love and i will die old together in our sleep, asleep in eachother's arms and no one will cry at our funeral because they will know we will always be happy because we were always together, because no one mattered more to us than the other. and they will laugh and tell stories of "that one time" and i will leave my property to my grandchildren and it will stay in my family forever and one day, my great great great great granddaughter will wish someone loved her as much as her great great great grandpa loved her great great great grandma.