let's just keep touching, let's just keep... keep singing
i don't think i've ever been this worried before. i have so much to talk about and get out but i have no one to talk to. nick is staying the night. he only talked to melissa once for a minute. i am all sorts of proud lol. everytime i listen to that stupid song and those lyrics, i remember what i said and what i feel and why i feel it. i wish i could just, erase it. i'm scared to close my eyes tonight, i wonder who i will be screaming at next. ugh, it's so frustrating. there's some other drama that i don't even want to talk about. mainly i think everyone is fucking with eachother and it's not cool. i think i'm being lied to and/or messed with and you know something, it makes me wish i could leave sooner. than again, i can't leave if i have no where to go. some people are really fucked up. oh well, i'm just gonna ignore it. i can't be involved in drama if i just... walk away. so, uh, peace.
i've decided not to get involved with anyone this year. no serious relationships, no relationships at all. no sex, no... macking, no touching. maybe a movie or dinner or some orange chicken from the chinese cafe, but i see no reason in getting serious when i'm just gonna leave. i will NOT let some stupid boy keep me from succeeding in life. plus, i've decided to wait for my soulmate :) my doctor who is... laid back and funny, who doesn't get mad easy or easily annoyed, who likes the ocean and making stupid jokes and who knows that i am absolutely and completely INSANE and loves me completely for it. and until i find him (he doesn't have to be a doctor yet) i'm not doing anything with anyone. i'm spending a lot of time on school this year.
go your own way, i'll be with you
make mistakes and i'll forgive you
home is waiting here for you when you return
i've decided not to get involved with anyone this year. no serious relationships, no relationships at all. no sex, no... macking, no touching. maybe a movie or dinner or some orange chicken from the chinese cafe, but i see no reason in getting serious when i'm just gonna leave. i will NOT let some stupid boy keep me from succeeding in life. plus, i've decided to wait for my soulmate :) my doctor who is... laid back and funny, who doesn't get mad easy or easily annoyed, who likes the ocean and making stupid jokes and who knows that i am absolutely and completely INSANE and loves me completely for it. and until i find him (he doesn't have to be a doctor yet) i'm not doing anything with anyone. i'm spending a lot of time on school this year.
go your own way, i'll be with you
make mistakes and i'll forgive you
home is waiting here for you when you return