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Wow its been like 2 years since I last used this thing. well Im still pissed hahahahaha but moslty about different stuff. more grown up shit if you will. petty little things like band drama and stupid little kid bullshit doesn't really bother me as much. Im stressed as fuck. more than ive ever been. i worry too much. not just about myself but for other people
Im extremely worried about alot of people in my life. my mom and dad are both really sick still. my girlfriend is sick. my friend krista might lose her place because of fucking lance and his retarded friends. god i wish that guy would OD already. I would wish AIDS on him but hed probably spread it like crazy. he is literally a waste of life. he will never go anywhere in life and i hope he seriously gets shot or stabbed before he turns 21.
the band is doing ok and by ok i mean things could be better. we're almost to the point to where we want to take it to the next level. but its like only two of us are on the same page. the other two have other plans. which is understandable, but why join a band that two of the members want to do full when you're not entirely serious about doing it at all. this isn't a hobby for me. this is what I want to do with my life. oh well im sure we can find new people and keep this going. if not. fuck it. I'll quit music altogether. Im tired of failing at life. as hard as I try, and I do, nothing ever seems to work out for the best with me. it'll get better but out of no where something fucks me over.
whatever same old shit. told ya nothing has changed
Im extremely worried about alot of people in my life. my mom and dad are both really sick still. my girlfriend is sick. my friend krista might lose her place because of fucking lance and his retarded friends. god i wish that guy would OD already. I would wish AIDS on him but hed probably spread it like crazy. he is literally a waste of life. he will never go anywhere in life and i hope he seriously gets shot or stabbed before he turns 21.
the band is doing ok and by ok i mean things could be better. we're almost to the point to where we want to take it to the next level. but its like only two of us are on the same page. the other two have other plans. which is understandable, but why join a band that two of the members want to do full when you're not entirely serious about doing it at all. this isn't a hobby for me. this is what I want to do with my life. oh well im sure we can find new people and keep this going. if not. fuck it. I'll quit music altogether. Im tired of failing at life. as hard as I try, and I do, nothing ever seems to work out for the best with me. it'll get better but out of no where something fucks me over.
whatever same old shit. told ya nothing has changed