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[xsketchx]

today I feel shittier than the last month has felt I don't know why. I feel betrayed and really really hurt. I never realized how much someone could effect me. in just two months. I didn't think it would feel this bad. especially when i did nothing wrong. esspecially when all I ever wanted to do was be there for them. and comfort them in their time

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[_foreveryours]

we all know where thats directed. cool.

[xsketchx]

im sorry but thats how i feel. I wish it would've worked out

[_foreveryours]

okay so trying to make me feel shitty is because...?

[xsketchx]

im not trying to make you feel shitty. i just wanted to say how i felt. i just feel shitty that everything with us just i dunno disappeared as. i honestly do wish things would've worked out. i really like you. i had feelings for you. i wanted to try to make things better. im really nice about everything too. and you just seem really cold to me now. like i try to have a conversation with you whenever i talk to you and you're very short with me. how do you think that makes me feel. i feel shitty. i feel like i was cheated out of being happy for once in my life. i was happy with you too. i just wanted to let you know that. you did have a big effect on me. you became very special to me. i meant everything i ever wrote to you. even the little jokes and all that shit. i had fun with you. Im just really sad about it thats all

[_foreveryours]

i cant see you becuase i am tired of seeing you. i cant breathe around you. and thats the problem. i cant have a conversation with you because you're gonna ask me how i am and whats new and when i tell you that michael and i are seeing eachother you're gonna go and post your liveournal entries and your blogs about how bummed out you are and its gonna, again, make me feel shitty. you swear like i deliberately broke up with you so you'd "get cheated out of being happy" or "get the shit end of the stick again" or whatever. you were too there. everywhere i turned you were right in front of me. i was happy, and i had feelings for you too. but it changed. and i realized that i couldn't be with you anymore cos then i'd be lying. and i'd just keep being unhappy. so you can call me selfish and you can call me an ass hole or a bitch and i'm just not gonna care. cos i know that i did what i needed to and my not talking to you right now or wanting to hang out is just what i need to do right now. everytime i do see you you look at me with this