Sep 25, 2004 18:02
I'm pretty much crying,about everything. me and my mom got into a Major fight and we were swearing at eachother,my grandpa is sending me a newspaper in the mail about sexual preditors hopeing it makes me delete everyone that doesnt live here off my list,so im thinking stuff i prolly wouldnt be like going down to the sexual preditors house down my street,since there is one. or just cutting myself and hopeing maybe that will make things a little better,even though that makes me a total freak,i dont know any other way to make myself feel better,everything i do isnt good enough,they always try to make me feel miserable or nothing/and it works. I'm not important & thats the way its always going to be.
Things wont change not years from now,not months from now. Like everyone 'says' because i hear that shit all the time and not once has anything good happend to me