I take a look in the mirror.. only to see an image I hate.. an image of me

Apr 14, 2005 15:12

Today... today just really hasent been my day soo far... Today just plain out sucked... in about every way it could have.... well I woke up to my blarring fucking alarm's... and like alway's kept slamming on the snooze button's soo I could rest for a bit longer... and before I knew it, I looked at my clock and it was 6:15.... soo I jumped up and was like FUCKKK!!!.... Cuz I missed the bus... soo I had to go get ready real quick and then waited for my mom to get ready for work cuz I needed to use the car... soo I had to go with her to her work and then I took the car to school... some guy was like riding up my ass the whole fucking way... it was really not the time... Soo that kinda irritated me to start off.... Then I got to school like within the last 5 minutes of first hour... walked in Web Design... and the fat ass just looked me right in the face and was like "ARE YOU SERIOUS!!".... and I dunno why but that pissed me off a bit more...Soo I sat down and waited a whole 2 minutes until the bell rang... Ran out and looked for noelle everywhere, cuz I wasent sure if she was there and just skipped or something... but I guess she just did'nt come once again... soo went to second hour... and this is pretty much where it all went downhill for me... I was writing back rachel... and I looked over and saw a not that rachel gave to sara... and I dunno why but I felt like I had to read a lil bit of it or I was gonna die... or something like that... soo I just read like half of it while sara was busy writing her back and whatnot... and wow... just wow... It made me fucking feel like everything inside of me was just being twisted up and shreded apart... and sara basically immediately knew something was wrong... and I just said "Reading something like that makes me feel as if everything I fucking do is for NOTHING... nothing at all".... and she was pretty much silent from then on out... after 2nd hour I saw rachel like usually... She knew I had something wrong with me and held me back trying to figure out what it was.. and I dunno for some reason that along made me happier... But I dunno I couldent get myself to say anything or whatever....soo then I just went to third hour... It was fucking reading day.. and in mrs boudrot's class you like HAVE to be reading or she'll start bitching until you did... but I really wasent in the fucking mood what soo ever.. she kept telling me to read but I just kept writing sara back until she came over and bitched at me... soo I just took out a mag and starred at it for the rest of the period... during 4th hour... Just like I suspected EVERYONE THAT I NEVER TALK TO WAS TRYING TO TALK TO ME FOR NO APPARENT REASON... and that pisses me off... because I was just soo... eblkjalbkjalkjg at the moment that I did'nt say shit but stare at them or just look away.... Soo all those people I never talk to probably think i'm a total fucking dick now... I don't know why that ALWAY'S HAPPENS!!!... IT just... ehhh..it drives me insane afterwards... and then the rest of the day was just.... dragging on... sucked, whatever... and I just got back from school like no more than 15 mins ago or soo..... I really dont wanna go tommorrow but I guess like alway's I have too... but anyway's i'm going to get my ass going because i've really got nothing more to say.. later bitches
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