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Ugh. I dont know. Some things seem like they are working out, but than other things are falling apart in my hands and there isnt anything i can do to stop the crumbling. Like dont get me wrong im not all sad or whatever, i just dont feel good. And it seems like i am so helpless to change whats going on. To be blunt...i dont feel like i'd ever be good enough for someone? An old friendship has gone all to hell. Life is getting to clynical, average, depressing and boring. Yet at the same time it feels like everything is going so fast. I just wish so bad that it could be summer again and that i could be skating at the park in my tight pants and my tbs shirt. I wish i was there and that it was 75, sunny, and just a great day at the park. Skating is dead for the winter...and that sucks so bad. Right now it feels like i cant remember anything, my head is all over the place and this whole frigging school year is beyond my comprehension. Ugh, im impressed with how awesome some people are and i love their loyalty. But other people seem like pure bull, they are so two-faced and fake and all they want is attention and they are just so "about themselves". They pretend to care about people other than themselves, but when you can see through them you find out that they only want what is good for themsleves, and they dont care whose lives they screw up, just as long as it makes them happy. They will screw you up and then just pretend like its nothing and that you should just get over it. If your one of those people...I HATE YOU. Its just as simple as that. Teenage dram is frigging retarded, how can you people be so f'ing gay! What goes on in your head, why are you so dumb. Ugh, people can be absolutley retarded. Although, i love you people that never change. I love those that actually have morals, loyalty, respect, maturity, and honor. I love my crew, i love all my friends, and i'd die for any one of you in a second. But what has high school done to some kids? Seriously. I dont know...some people are just screwing up my life so bad and i am trying to forget about them and leave them in the past, but the past is so constantly going through my head, and each time i see these people it brings back pain and regret. I dont know...im just all f'ed up right now. I know things will be better very soon. But i hate these temporary highs, i am all happy one second, and all sad another. Frigging mood swings. Haha, well i guess that im done complaining. -Dave