I decided to not care anymore.

[xsinnerx]

I guess what ive been contemplating is whether or not ill ever be happy as it seems now that happiness is anywhere but where I am, Im in a sad state again thinking about Chris and James and how much they were alike and how much at the time I tried to deny that Chris had a problem and that one day he would have hit me, I dont know why I fall for the people I do, maybe Im prone to being attracted to losers? or maybe thats all who's attracted to me who the hell knows anymore. my jaw hurts like hell i have a lump on my bottom jaw.. i think its from the unfinished root canal.. i dont know though.. i just wish theyd finish the fuckin thing. but im gettin tired and my fuckin head hurts..

|mandy|