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Holy crap, I't s nearly Valentine's Day
Life seems to be going so fast lately. It seems to me like it should only be like, November. I don't like it. Life is passing too fast. I mean, I'm halfway done with Freshman year, and I don't feel like I've accomplished much. And, like, what comes next? We just go through each grade like it's a daily routine, which, of course, it is, but it shouldn't be, becuase after highschool, we go to college, and after that, boom, we're gone, have a nice life!! Wtf?? And, they're telling us that all the classes that we take now are going to affect our college life, and then that'll affect our life in general, and I mean, what if we don't get to do what we want in life? And, it's sad...like, to the point where I can't think about it without getting odgeda...that you barely keep half the friends you make in high school. Now, I know that with some of my friends, there's not much to worry about, because we're so close, but then there's those some friends that matter a lot, but you don't think that you'll see them after high school. It's scary. It's sad. I hate to think about it. I hate thinking so far into the future.
Well, in some cases, at least. But there have been those situations when I haven't thought ahead far enough, or I make bad decesions, or something stupid like that. And I hate myself for that. And it makes me sick to think that I could be such a...well, bad person. And I mean, it's not like I wouldn't think something through intentionally--I would never mean to hurt anyone, especally the people that I've hurt in the past. I hate this, I fucking hate this. I hate that I hurt people. I hate that can never seem to do anything right.
Happy Valentine's Day one and all.
Who knows, maybe it'll turn out to be a good one.
Life seems to be going so fast lately. It seems to me like it should only be like, November. I don't like it. Life is passing too fast. I mean, I'm halfway done with Freshman year, and I don't feel like I've accomplished much. And, like, what comes next? We just go through each grade like it's a daily routine, which, of course, it is, but it shouldn't be, becuase after highschool, we go to college, and after that, boom, we're gone, have a nice life!! Wtf?? And, they're telling us that all the classes that we take now are going to affect our college life, and then that'll affect our life in general, and I mean, what if we don't get to do what we want in life? And, it's sad...like, to the point where I can't think about it without getting odgeda...that you barely keep half the friends you make in high school. Now, I know that with some of my friends, there's not much to worry about, because we're so close, but then there's those some friends that matter a lot, but you don't think that you'll see them after high school. It's scary. It's sad. I hate to think about it. I hate thinking so far into the future.
Well, in some cases, at least. But there have been those situations when I haven't thought ahead far enough, or I make bad decesions, or something stupid like that. And I hate myself for that. And it makes me sick to think that I could be such a...well, bad person. And I mean, it's not like I wouldn't think something through intentionally--I would never mean to hurt anyone, especally the people that I've hurt in the past. I hate this, I fucking hate this. I hate that I hurt people. I hate that can never seem to do anything right.
Happy Valentine's Day one and all.
Who knows, maybe it'll turn out to be a good one.