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i could really give two shits less anymore. about anything honestly. if it happens cool. if it doesnt then fuck it i'm tired of trying so hard to make my life be what i want it to be. i mean if its meant to happen its going to happen whether i like it or not or whether i want it to or not.
i miss justin a shitload. i think he's the only person i can really open up with. he probably get tired of me but oh well. i dunno. fuck. like theres people out there that i hang out with but i dont really connect and it fucking sucks. like i find that when people talk to me and expect me to listen to them about stuff that alot of times i'm super zoned out and dont hear a word but when justin talks i listen for some reason cause i actually care. i dunno. maybe i'm just super fucking selfish. that's probably it.
i fucking hate it when you cant tell what someones thinking and like you have a hunch cause you are a good read of people. but then when you say something about it they act like its like of no importance when you thought it was. people are so fucking frustrating.
i have no friends. and i'm tired of feeling sorry for myself so i guess i should start depending on just myself more. because who the hell wants to hang out with someone who's constantly feeling sorry for themselves. not i. i actually dont mind not having any friends. people arent exactly all they're cracked up to be. i'm not particularly a fan. a.) because they fucked me over and b.) because they fucked my best friend over. ok I'm done ranting and thanks for listening to my moodiness. i <3 you.
jenna
i miss justin a shitload. i think he's the only person i can really open up with. he probably get tired of me but oh well. i dunno. fuck. like theres people out there that i hang out with but i dont really connect and it fucking sucks. like i find that when people talk to me and expect me to listen to them about stuff that alot of times i'm super zoned out and dont hear a word but when justin talks i listen for some reason cause i actually care. i dunno. maybe i'm just super fucking selfish. that's probably it.
i fucking hate it when you cant tell what someones thinking and like you have a hunch cause you are a good read of people. but then when you say something about it they act like its like of no importance when you thought it was. people are so fucking frustrating.
i have no friends. and i'm tired of feeling sorry for myself so i guess i should start depending on just myself more. because who the hell wants to hang out with someone who's constantly feeling sorry for themselves. not i. i actually dont mind not having any friends. people arent exactly all they're cracked up to be. i'm not particularly a fan. a.) because they fucked me over and b.) because they fucked my best friend over. ok I'm done ranting and thanks for listening to my moodiness. i <3 you.
jenna