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so yeah. the countdown is down to like 4 days. i'm fairly upset for some reason but i'm trying not to let it get me down. have you ever had like a little brother or sister get made fun of at school? that's how i feel lately about all this drama between friends bullshit. like i could care less if chad and ricky and megan hate me. but you'de think that as good of friends as everyone says they are or are suppose to be that someone other than me would be hanging out with justin every evening. so it pisses me off. mostly just to see justin sad. because i dunno that gets me right here. and then i try like everything to cheer him up and i can't because lets face it, as hard as i try i can't be chad and ricky. but yeah that wont stop me from being there. because i'm around for keeps and i kinda like being there. it just makes me happy to see him happy. you know? i'm gonna miss that kid alot. but he'll be back by christmas so i'll guess we'll just have to make the most of the time we have. life is deffinitly changing thats for sure. I can't wait until I turn 18 so I can be apart of shit. cause right now it just looks like i'm about to be left behind. oh well. i'll adapt. i'm done here though. later