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Could things be anymore fucked up? I want to move out so bad. like it used to be some big debate in my head how i thought that i couldnt do it without my family there. Sometimes friends just dont get it. i think its because we're at the time in our lives where we're not quite empathetic enough to help people with their problems. family is different tho because you're sort of a part of them. but if i was to live with my friends and get depressed or something then id just be stuck in a place that i didnt want to be with a feeling i hated and i wouldnt know how to get rid of it. but now i really dont care. i hate it here and nothing can be worse then the feeling i have now. all i want is to be happy again. i feel like im missing out on all the fun. i still call and talk to my friends but its not the same when you cant see the looks on their faces when theyre telling you something exciting. but im getting a job and hopefully ill be able to save up enough money to come visit for the summer. then after that ill take college classes at night so i can graduate early. or...i donno what i want to do god i just want to leave right now.
so i guess marissa beat up krystal thank god i have wanted to do that for so long. shes such a stupid whore. im glad she likes it in the ass, now i have more of a reason to hate her and make fun of her.
my sister and he friend are visiting right now from San Fransisco. They're fun to hang out with. i miss hanging out with girls. and taking forever to get ready and looking at cute boys and just laughing at random shit. please god let me find someone normal to hang out with in this town!
friday night was crazy. two freshmen girls came to my house and got drunk and fucked up my room it sucked. and this guy taylor slept over and molested me in my sleep. it was kinda weird but whatever he was drunk.
time for dinner
so i guess marissa beat up krystal thank god i have wanted to do that for so long. shes such a stupid whore. im glad she likes it in the ass, now i have more of a reason to hate her and make fun of her.
my sister and he friend are visiting right now from San Fransisco. They're fun to hang out with. i miss hanging out with girls. and taking forever to get ready and looking at cute boys and just laughing at random shit. please god let me find someone normal to hang out with in this town!
friday night was crazy. two freshmen girls came to my house and got drunk and fucked up my room it sucked. and this guy taylor slept over and molested me in my sleep. it was kinda weird but whatever he was drunk.
time for dinner