Feb 01, 2007 08:11
I went to the doctor because the cuts on my leg were pretty infected. The top one was swollen and red and the others were just really red and hot. I kept getting a throbbing pain all the way up to my knee so Jen convinced me to go in.
The doctor was really understanding about it. When he seen my leg he said, "Oh, my. I guess you did." He sat there examining my entire calf before asking me if I'm getting help for this, who am I seeing, when I do I see them next, blah blah blah. He said that they are infected and he prescribed a heavy duty antibiotic. It's making me sick though.
Anyway, got up and said, "Don't go anywhere quite yet, I'm going to have my nurse come in and take a culture of that to see if the infection has spread." I nodded and said okay, not thinking anything of it.
The nurse comes in, sticks a cotton swab inside the cuts and gets up to leave. I asked if I could go now since she was done. She looked petrified. "Um, no. The doctor wants you to wait here. Somebody is going to be in a few minutes to talk to you. Her name is Jodi."
Greeaat. Jodi comes in, "Hi, I'm Jodi. I'm the social worker for the clinic here and doctor so and so said blah blah blah severe, blah blah safety of yourself, blah blah, suicidal? blah blah, want you to be safe.
I told her what she wanted to hear, annoyingly, and sped out of there before someone changed thier mind about me retaining my freedom. I was supposed to wait for a tetnus shot but I couldn't risk it.
As far as the antibiotics go, they are horrible. Huge, white, chalky pills. Potent. They burn my stomach. Make me tired. Make me sick. He told me it was either these or IV antibiotics. I took the pills. I don't have 6 hours to waste sitting on a bed doing nothing while hooked up to a machine.
Sabrina's home. I'm so happy about that. I was so worried about her. I still am. And Kristina's talking to me more often, so that's good. I missed talking to her. I just wish everyone would be okay. I hate seeing people struggle. My friends are the only people I have. Jen, Sabrina, and Kristina. They mean everything to me. Without them I'd be nothing. They have all helped me in so many ways. Now I'm just rambling but that's mostly because I've been up since 5:30am and slept like shit all night.
I think I'll stop now before I end up writing a novel.
self injury,
friends,
hospital