One of the hardest things I've ever done.
I broke a heart yesterday. I ruined someone's happiness and hopes and dreams for the future. He said he has given up on love and all that stuff. But I had to do it. This was our fourth month together and I didn't feel right leading him on like that any longer. Now he believes that his efforts were all for naught and how he was stupid for trying so hard when he knew it was going to end this way. I tried telling him that the fact that he tried s what proves that he has it in him to make someone happy, or something like that.
And now as I try to sing out my sorrows I realize, there's a lot of songs about people breaking up with each other. Not only that but the songs are almost always from the point of view from the wronged person. (But as shitty as they make me feel they're are still amusing or sad and catchy so I'll sing them anyway.) I feel like writing my own song and I thank God that I can sing and play piano.
I still don't completely understand him so I'm not sure how to interact with him today. Should I not speak to him or ask him if he's okay? This is why I rather stay away from relationships. They complicate things more than they should.
And now as I try to sing out my sorrows I realize, there's a lot of songs about people breaking up with each other. Not only that but the songs are almost always from the point of view from the wronged person. (But as shitty as they make me feel they're are still amusing or sad and catchy so I'll sing them anyway.) I feel like writing my own song and I thank God that I can sing and play piano.
I still don't completely understand him so I'm not sure how to interact with him today. Should I not speak to him or ask him if he's okay? This is why I rather stay away from relationships. They complicate things more than they should.