So much left to say but no one to say it to

[xsilentemotions]

So there were plenty of things I wanted to say today but couldn't. I don't want to make things any stranger than they have to be. I don't know why I called. It was a dumb idea. I guess I thought that calling would help or something. It didn't. I don't understand why things have to be this way. I mean, I understand why you had to leave, and I understand why you wanted to make yourself happy. I just don't understand why you can't even talk to me. I don't understand why you quit caring. It doesn't make any sense to me. There is still so much left unsaid, atleast on my end. I can't believe you're being the way you are. Why won't you just talk to me? Why can't you just tell me how you're feeling. I mean, there are so many things I want to know. I don't know if knowing them would make things better or worse... but wondering is bothersome. I mean, maybe I should just get the things I want to know out of my head. I don't think it'll help, but it can't hurt.
1. Do you really not love me anymore?
2. Is there really no hope for us... ever?
3. How does one fall out of love?
4. Are my signs and pictures still in your room?
5. Have you seen other people?
6. Do you read these things?
7. Are you aware that you've torn me apart?
8. Why can't we talk face to face?
9. Why don't you want to see me?
10. Do you ever wonder how things would be right now if you hadn't of left?
11. Do you ever wonder what I'm doing?
12. Do you ever cry because of what we lost?
13. Does what we had mean anything to you?
14. Is it hard for you to go to bed alone?
15. Do showers sometimes make you sad?
16. Do you miss me at all?
There are more... I can't list anything else right now though. I need something... yeah, something I shouldn't.