a certainty i envy...
i went to the allergist yesterday, to see if maybe that's why i suddenly got asthma. she didn't tell me anything i didn't already know. stupid doctor. and then she gave me 2 Advair inhalers, this other inhaler, another inhaler and then this other one in case the previous 4 didn't work. oh, and i still have 2 that i'm already taking regularly. and Singulair tablets on top of that. the doctor said that i have 'a serious underlying lung condition that is aggrevated by everything from pollen to laughing.' well. am i supposed to live a sheltered life free of running and dancing and laughing? maybe then i'll be able to breathe. on top of that, the Advair has this weird effect on me. probably because i take that and singulair and albuterol all together (not my choice). but, about 1/2 an hour after i take the Advair, i get really depressed and angry. yesterday, i was so frustrated with my report card (i went from a 93 to a 77 in math and a 92 to an 83 in earth science) that i actually punched my bathroom door so hard that it flew open and the door knob shattered the tile on the wall behind it. anyone who knows me well, knows that i would never do anything to inflict harm upon myself, and it scared me that i did that. and it hurt, really badly. my knuckles were swollen. i looked up the side effects of Advair on the computer, and sure enough, depression, anxiety, anger and situational disorders were included in the list of many side effects including migraines and wheezing, which i also had. what a stupid medication. i can't stop taking it either, because the doctor said the side effects will subside with the longer you're on the medication. stupid stupid stupid. i don't want to take it, but if i don't, i can't breathe. asthma sucks, i still don't know whats causing it and medications are stupid.