infedelity.
i'm having more trouble dealing with this then i thought i would.
i've cried. a lot. i don't really feel like eating. the only thing that seems to bring a smile out is getting wasted and/or smoking massive amounts of pot. what a healthy way to move on, right?
in the midst of our relationship, when i could tell i was starting to get attached, i told myself if it didn't work i wouldn't be dating again for a while. and i'm standing by that. and when i say a while, i don't mean months, more like yearssssss. multiple.
i hate this.
"and every night i think i certainly won't ever sleep
sober or alone.
and then suddenly, well it occurs to me,
i've slept alone before you.
so i pour myself the stiffest drink my stomach can stand,
and convince myself to lay back down again.
i've cried. a lot. i don't really feel like eating. the only thing that seems to bring a smile out is getting wasted and/or smoking massive amounts of pot. what a healthy way to move on, right?
in the midst of our relationship, when i could tell i was starting to get attached, i told myself if it didn't work i wouldn't be dating again for a while. and i'm standing by that. and when i say a while, i don't mean months, more like yearssssss. multiple.
i hate this.
"and every night i think i certainly won't ever sleep
sober or alone.
and then suddenly, well it occurs to me,
i've slept alone before you.
so i pour myself the stiffest drink my stomach can stand,
and convince myself to lay back down again.