ugh.
today my parents got my car back. it was finally finished getting fixed.
i was in a fairly peppy mood, but without even realizing it i got real quiet and got in one of those moods where i don't feel like talking or even responding to anyone. my parents don't like these moods because unless absolutely forced to use words, i just kind of look at them and grunt whenever i'm spoken to.
it sucks. i don't even want to go outside and see it. way, way, waaaay too many memories.
when i walked past it, i still thought "my car". rude awakening.
i was real excited about my parents going out of town for 4 days. but when i thought about it, it's not going to be half as cool as it would have been had i have never lost my license. i never would have thought my license was this crucial to my happiness.
whatever. things have actually been looking up, so i won't drag myself back into that whole situation.
ben has been great lately, and that's pretty much the only positive i can think of right now.
fuck.
sometimes i really feel like a piece of shit.
and if i would have just saved all my weed i smoked today, instead of smoking in 4 different sessions, i would be a lot higher, and in turn, felt a lot better.
sihishhahah i'm so pitiful.
i was in a fairly peppy mood, but without even realizing it i got real quiet and got in one of those moods where i don't feel like talking or even responding to anyone. my parents don't like these moods because unless absolutely forced to use words, i just kind of look at them and grunt whenever i'm spoken to.
it sucks. i don't even want to go outside and see it. way, way, waaaay too many memories.
when i walked past it, i still thought "my car". rude awakening.
i was real excited about my parents going out of town for 4 days. but when i thought about it, it's not going to be half as cool as it would have been had i have never lost my license. i never would have thought my license was this crucial to my happiness.
whatever. things have actually been looking up, so i won't drag myself back into that whole situation.
ben has been great lately, and that's pretty much the only positive i can think of right now.
fuck.
sometimes i really feel like a piece of shit.
and if i would have just saved all my weed i smoked today, instead of smoking in 4 different sessions, i would be a lot higher, and in turn, felt a lot better.
sihishhahah i'm so pitiful.