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alright-- so my birthday went by.. along with that boy of mine. well not mine anymore.. gotta get used to that one. shows were fun. LOVE bein with my girls. i dont think ive had a better weekend in like.. forever. got the license.. no car. workin my ass off tho. i never have time for anything else except work. i hate it. u ever feel like ur wasting ur life.. constantly working. yea i hear ya there. honestly i can say ive worked my life away since i was 13... nice huh?  powder puff is comin up.  thats rite no. 8 hoes. lol u wish u had it. i feel so lonely rite now.. no one is home. codie renee kristi doug n scottie stopped by..  but left. fuck em. it was funny while they were here though. joey bit doug n made him bleed. : \  haha i told him but he didnt listen. so yea im home alone. i hate to talk about it but i keep thinkin bout the fact we aren't together.. and it hurts. like bad. last time we got back together and knowing that it wont work again makes me feel like shit. i love how u dont feel the way i do. not even close. u can say a million things to make me smile..  but when were getting off the fone and i cant say i love you none of that smiling stuff matters. when asked of u or how were doing... i feel like an idiot saying u left me cuz we cant make things work. after a year and 4months we cant make things work. i feel like i've jus spent the past year n 4months alone.. like u were never there. like we never got together in the first place. im not gonna say it was wasted time.. but even u kno damn well that it was.

.:.:.how can i say ill be okay.:.:.
         .      -when u've broken my heart-     .
 *and kept the biggest peices*