Nov 16, 2004 22:54
Is it wrong that the only time in years that I have finally felt alive is when we were together? Now I’m back to being nothing but a broken heart and hollow shell, who is only alive on the surface. At least before you came along, I was comfortably numb, but then you awakened something in me and left it only to die.
I've been putting on a good act, but the truth is that I haven’t felt this alone in God knows how long, and I can’t stop wishing that you were here to end the pain.
I can’t stop wishing you were here.
My happiness, my heart, and half of my soul was stolen away, and only a portion of me remains. I tried so hard for so long to keep my distance from you. I knew that this could only end in sorrow. I held on to my heart for as long as I could, until my feelings grew so strong that I could no longer deny them.
I finally let you see inside…and you denied me.
I guess I should have known better, I should have fought harder.
I should have never let you in.
Are you happy now? Now that you’re all alone with your cold hard heart?
Can you honestly tell me that it’s better this way?
I don’t believe you.
I can see it in your eyes, and hear it in the sound of your voice. You know you are missing something.
You know you are missing me.
Then, what the hell are we doing here?
You’re the worst kind of drug that I’m addicted to. I know you’re poison to my heart, but I’d do anything for a little more.
Sometimes I wish that you would go away. But the day that you do, will be the day that my heart turns black.
I wish I could just let you go…
I wish you would just let me.
I don’t know how I’ll get him off my mind
but give me time, I’ll think of something
I can’t say that I’m all right
but by tonight, I’ll think of something
I’ll find so many things to do that I wont have the time to think of him
And then if he’s still on my mind I’ll try to drink enough to drown the hurt
And if that don’t work, I’ll think of something