finally, locked up
its happened, mike has finally went to jail. for four years and ive been writing about it for the past six months in my journal and wrote about him and how i wanted him to be my everything, come to think of it its sad and it wasnt worth it, it wasnt even worth doing anything with him or even kissing him i sometimes wish we were just friends and didnt get into anything fast, but thats over now. ill be twenty one when he gets out of jail. i cant wait to see him now.
tuesday night, amanda, will and i slept over his house we went swimming in the dark at eleven pm. like idiots the water was cold and they decided to go in naked while i had my clothes on, all i did was take off my caprees real fast but i put em back on and then it was will's big idea to get naked, i wasnt having fun it was cold and i had three friggin people around me that were naked.
then we went back to his hizzouse, i was so tired i wanted the lights off and the tv off and them sleeping, i cant sleep around noise and the light and tv on. will ended up sleeping near me and i know amanda was mad, its not my fault he likes me she knows that but i cant see myself doing anything with her around cos i dont want her gettin mad at me. at like five in the morning i woke up and i told will to shut off the tv so i could fall asleep, but he kept on touching me and rubbing me, so it kind of led to more of that, we didnt make out or anything, just touch and he was kissing my hands, and kissing my waist, it was cute. then when he got up to get a drink he gave me a kiss three times, i didnt open my mouth though. everytime hes kissed me ive had my mouth closed. i dont want to kiss him back, ive only had a real kiss with one person. i dont know when it comes to those things i like being a good girl about it.
last night will told me he wanted to be with me okay, im hoping he doesnt ask me out i dont want a boyfriend right now, i dont even think im ready for a boyfriend since i havent had one all my life, i went out with this kid for a week but we were ten years old and i tell everyone i dont count that cos you dont even know what going out with someone is when your that young, its just more like a crush. i want to be with will but i dont know how me and him would work out. and what my friend would actually think about him, but if they arent together anymore what does it really matter? i know she still likes him thats why i wouldnt go out with him, but he isnt going to like me forever if nothings going to happen cos then it would be like he is wasting his time and just go find someone else.
i hate being confused about this, i might go see him tomorrow, i hate the ride there and back. why does this shit have to be so complicated. i feel so bad about the whole mike thing of him going to jail.
tuesday night, amanda, will and i slept over his house we went swimming in the dark at eleven pm. like idiots the water was cold and they decided to go in naked while i had my clothes on, all i did was take off my caprees real fast but i put em back on and then it was will's big idea to get naked, i wasnt having fun it was cold and i had three friggin people around me that were naked.
then we went back to his hizzouse, i was so tired i wanted the lights off and the tv off and them sleeping, i cant sleep around noise and the light and tv on. will ended up sleeping near me and i know amanda was mad, its not my fault he likes me she knows that but i cant see myself doing anything with her around cos i dont want her gettin mad at me. at like five in the morning i woke up and i told will to shut off the tv so i could fall asleep, but he kept on touching me and rubbing me, so it kind of led to more of that, we didnt make out or anything, just touch and he was kissing my hands, and kissing my waist, it was cute. then when he got up to get a drink he gave me a kiss three times, i didnt open my mouth though. everytime hes kissed me ive had my mouth closed. i dont want to kiss him back, ive only had a real kiss with one person. i dont know when it comes to those things i like being a good girl about it.
last night will told me he wanted to be with me okay, im hoping he doesnt ask me out i dont want a boyfriend right now, i dont even think im ready for a boyfriend since i havent had one all my life, i went out with this kid for a week but we were ten years old and i tell everyone i dont count that cos you dont even know what going out with someone is when your that young, its just more like a crush. i want to be with will but i dont know how me and him would work out. and what my friend would actually think about him, but if they arent together anymore what does it really matter? i know she still likes him thats why i wouldnt go out with him, but he isnt going to like me forever if nothings going to happen cos then it would be like he is wasting his time and just go find someone else.
i hate being confused about this, i might go see him tomorrow, i hate the ride there and back. why does this shit have to be so complicated. i feel so bad about the whole mike thing of him going to jail.