A Bid Farewell
So, I have been thinking lately. I have to break up with Katy, I mean, she is nice and everything like that and she will be my friend forever. But you know, I need something more than what she can offer. We been through a lot, her and I, but I don't think that we should be dating. It feels wierd to me sometimes. If she rests her head on me, or I place mine on her, something is a miss. You know when you are around someone and it just feels like it should be that way? Kind of predestined, if you will? I simply don't have that, and I can't lie to myself or her anymore by giving this relationship a mask to cover the flaws of it all. So I must do what I have to do, sooner or later. And if you have your criticisms about what I do, keep them to yourself. Like this isn't going to be hard enough, I don't need people calling me dumb or whatever crap you might let pass through your lips. Let it go.
I had to take Mom to get bloodwork done today, I think it was to see if she can continue using some of the medication she is on. Also, she has to go and get more work done on her thyroid this Friday. That should be a blast, now that everyone here will be on edge until and shortly after that. Great, like I want to deal with that. But oh well, it'll pass and everything will go back to the way it was before. Damn, that's gonna suck. All work and no play makes Ray suspicious.....or something like that.
As a final explanation, if and when I break up with her, remember that I go through a lot of mood swings when I start being alone again. It has always happened, and it always will. I'm sorry that anyone would have to listen to it, so if you don't want to, leave me be. Trust me, you'll know when it happens. Keep in mind I make a return to form fairly quickly most of the time, so it won't be as if it is a permanent transformation. However, one of those would be nice, but that is just wishful thinking. I wonder if I should dye my hair black as a nice change.....hm......interesting. I'll find something to warp my outer image soon enough. To everyone, see you later.
-Raymo
-Well that's done now. I got a nice e-mail for my trouble, which was rather humerous. So many misconceptions, such little time. Oh well.
I had to take Mom to get bloodwork done today, I think it was to see if she can continue using some of the medication she is on. Also, she has to go and get more work done on her thyroid this Friday. That should be a blast, now that everyone here will be on edge until and shortly after that. Great, like I want to deal with that. But oh well, it'll pass and everything will go back to the way it was before. Damn, that's gonna suck. All work and no play makes Ray suspicious.....or something like that.
As a final explanation, if and when I break up with her, remember that I go through a lot of mood swings when I start being alone again. It has always happened, and it always will. I'm sorry that anyone would have to listen to it, so if you don't want to, leave me be. Trust me, you'll know when it happens. Keep in mind I make a return to form fairly quickly most of the time, so it won't be as if it is a permanent transformation. However, one of those would be nice, but that is just wishful thinking. I wonder if I should dye my hair black as a nice change.....hm......interesting. I'll find something to warp my outer image soon enough. To everyone, see you later.
-Raymo
-Well that's done now. I got a nice e-mail for my trouble, which was rather humerous. So many misconceptions, such little time. Oh well.