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I have to say when it rains, it really fucking pours. Your life can be so good one minute, and then just like that shit turns upside down and you find yourself blaming your #1 enemy- YOURSELF. Can't trust nobody these days. When it all goes down, you really don't have anyone. You know, I envy those people that live the good life. The ones that are smart, good looking and are in good relationships with their boyfriends, have great friends and live a fucking sugar coated life. Good for you guys. Those are also the ones you have to watch out for, cuz they'll eat you alive with their contradictions and hypocricsm. Sorta like do as I say, but not as I do?? Fuck that. We're all going to hell either way, so what makes one person think they're "better" than the next.
I stared this journal for the sole purpose of entertainment. Then it got personal, I got into the little details of my life, my family, my love life,etc. Then shit gets all deep all of a sudden. People start the accusations, the assumptions, the 2nd grade NAME CALLING, and all of a sudden you go from 100% innocent to "the slut that wants my man". You try to let it not bother you- cuz who the fuck are they to you anyway? Then it does get to you, cuz you gotta be careful what you write in your journal and who will IM/copy&paste what to who and criticize and tear apart everything you write, say or do. So, now you're scared to write shit and talk to people cuz you can't trust no one.
Well, anyway this entry was really pointless and it doesn't really apply to anyone in general, so PLEASE don't start gossip. Actually, yea my point was that I can and I will admit- my life is not perfect, I'm not extra smart, I'm certainly not a super model and Leo and I fight like dogs and cats every single day. That's just me- I'm human- I have flaws. Therefore, from now on, instead of proofreading what I write, and then going back to omit something cuz I think people will talk shit about me...I'm going to just be 100% real. Let's face it people, I've been taken advantaged of my whole life cuz I never speak up. Does it really ever get you anywhere. I wasn't put on this earth to make enemies and live a unhappy life, so why at 21 does shit go downhill? What will happen in 10 years?