theres so much to say....
hey everyone, i havent done an actual post in soooo long, well im gonna mention a lot of things that have been going on. The band is going great, we are looking for a 2nd guitarist also. now that you herd the lovely part of my life, lets move on. I dont really feel to healthy any more too much nerves bouncing off the walls inside me, i honestly wake up in the middle of the night vomiting in pain, i dont know whats wrong, and i've only told one person. i feel so alone and emo right now, i have so many different feelings for so many people right now and i dont know what to do. im obviously to afraid to say anything so i keep to myself like i do everything. lots of family problems going on right now, my dads drinking soo much i cant even talk to him now, hes splitting up with his g/f and is moving out soon. i think its for the better, but who knows, maybe he'll grow old by himself. i dont want to end up like my dad, i know i will, he's one of my heros but theres only so much thats heroic. last night the police were here at my house because june (fathers g/f) got in a fight with her 23 yr old son ryan. hes living here at the moment, and i know this is bad, but i wish death upon him. i have never wished death on anyone, but hes hurt so many people in his life and its just not fair. DAMN why cant i have a normal life?!? just something better than this....