Thoughts on a Year of Love and Misery

Jan 01, 2006 05:40

At the beginning of 2005, I wrote an entry in my old Diaryland about my hopes and expectations for the year.

That won't be the case this time around.

2005 was alot of things. Let me recount with how it started, at least for me. I was convinced I was in love, and there was nothing else in the world better than that. I was soon to realize that it wasn't meant to be, and I suffered from an aching heart.

I had my first leading role in a play. It wasn't the best play or my best performance, but it was memorable. I met one of my very best friends (I less than three you, Cait). I got into another relationship, and it was fun while it lasted. I enjoyed a summer that drew me closer to some friends(Jaime, Chris, Dale, Dennis, lots of others), while making me miss others (Matt and Bubba).

I got into the longest lasting relationship of my life. It was the closest I became with someone, and shared something very important and meaningful. I starred in another leading role, this time in a very succesful show. I ended my relationship because I couldn't handle any longer the expectations of what relationships should be.

I lost a friend forever. Katie Magle was a friend that I will always wish that I had become closer to, instead of brushing her off. Katie Magle was a friend that would always seem to be on the opposite side of stupid fights. Katie Magle was a friend I never got to know well enough. That's something I'll never stop feeling guilty about.

And as I close the chapter on 2005 and begin to embrace 2006, here are a few thoughts:

I love the friends I do have.
I want to make more.
Time flies by very quickly, and 2006 will be gone before you know it.
I really hope the musical lives up to my expectations. It's my last hurrah.
College is coming soon, and it's going to be a whole new world.
It's time to say goodbye.

I love you all, God (or whatever deity you choose) bless you, and appreciate what you have, who you have, what you are, and where you're going.

Happy New Year, folks.
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