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everyday i feel my self becoming more empty. i feel lost with out Corey by my side. I know we're still togther but its sux not seein him i meen yes i talk to him everyday but its not enuff i want to be able to touch him wen i want not wait i cant stand it i jus wish these 9 months i could sleep through. im so angry now n i keep takin it out on him n i dont meen to its jus i kno he loves me n i dunno why i do i miss him so much it makes me sick i cant do this. and i want him to get off his ass n do sutitn wit his life. i love him so much i jus want the best. im so scared of losin him though. my dad was talkin to me bout how if i do good than i could go back n live wit him before i turn 16 n get emancipated but i kno that aint happenin cuz my mom has her mind set. i meen i wish i could i jus don't wanna get my hopes up and set my self up for a disapointment. me n corey seem to be fightin while im up here we're bolth so scared n worried n shit is trunin into jealousy i jus cant wait to go n see him i aint fightin wit him while im there i jus want to be with him n hold him its gunna suck to have to leave him tho AGEN!! err why did i have to go n fuck up so bad!!!! im so angry wit m self n i take it out on everywun else im so fuckin miserable. they sed moving here was supposed tah be better for me but how is it if im empty if everyday i wake up n i feel nothing. i meen i kno i wasnt to happy in lewistin but thats cuz of me n my dad n family probs other wise i was happy. and now i have nothing.....
I wish i could make my mom relize that i dont belong here i wish she was around me all day so she could see how i am n see how this is eatin away at me i meen i want to be in lewistin i wanna go to skool there i wanna do good there n i fucked it up i jus wish i had another chance to prove myself there but i have no one to blame but myself. well this is it im gettin angry jus writin bout it bye bye
Lil Cassie<3