UGGGG!
Wow... I feel really bad. My mom called Jewel's cell phone to wish me a happy birthday... and say that they love me... I heard the message and it sounded like she was gonna cry. I feel so horrible!!! Like... I don't want to talk to her but I feel obligated to call her or else I'll be the bitch of the century... I don't know what to do. I didn't call her for mother's day so I didn't think she'd call me... I thought that it would be a nice clean break from my family for at least a few months... But now I have the major guilt trip shit piling up on me. Like my lil sister called me telling me that she missed me and she wanted me to come home and she like nearly started crying and shit. How the fuck am I suppost to handel this shit? It's my fucking birthday today and like I feel like the biggest bitch for not wanting to deal with them. Cuz I know if I call them and talk to them I'll get guilted into moving back in with them and it'll be the same shit as before. God I want to cry right now but I can't because I'm here at Shane's and we're going to dinner in a while and I don't want to ruin everyone's time... I just dunno what to do... Whatever... I'll get over it.