Fuck it all
Dude... It sucks when people get pissed at you for no fucking reason. It pisses me off so fucking bad. And Beth does that all the fucking time. I don't understand her. She gets mad about fucking everything and them I'M the one that has to fucking apologise. It's so fucking messed up. She always gets pissed at me about like blair and shit... God damn... Just fucking run away with blair. I don't even care anymore cuz I know she'd do it if she had a chance anywayz... so yeah. I'm fucking pissed and I just had to get it out. I'm over here at Stephen's and Heather is flirting like hell with stephens brother and his friend. Fun stuff right? Yeah sure. Lots of fun... damn they should just have a fucking threesome there on the waterbed. Cuz they're practically fucking as it is. Wow... I am a bitch. Thats what stephen's brother kept telling me and I guess he's right. Wow I wish jarred would call me... but the last couple of times I wanted to talk to him and called him he was like lemme call you back and he never did. That makes me sad. Cuz he's like the only dude I can really talk to. And he's in fucking alaska. Damn the army. It takes away all the nice guys and leaves all the assholes... god damn. I hate all the guys that all they want is sex. God damn is all they fucking think about sex? Honestly... Its like all the guys in pensacola are run by they're fucking dicks. Wow... okay I'm done bitching. Tonight might be fun. I hope... We're suppost to get some shit. I'm getting so drunk if we do... I can't handel all this drama. Like thats why I fucking moved outta my house. Too much shit to deal with. Thats why I smoke and drink. To try and chill cuz people make little shit into such big ass drama. Wait... I said I was done bitching... okay I'm done. Well... Other than bitching there isn't much more to say... Poor rachel is all sad cuz of sara and jeremy and all they;re shit... and beth is pissed... and well i wanna fall off the face of the world... woah.. that would be a tight way to die. lol. I have the bad feeling that I'm going to die really young... I dunno why... well yeah I do. Cuz of all the stpid shit I do... oh well its not like I have much to live for. Man I miss Lindsey so much. I havent talked to her in a really long time... I hate my parents... because of them I'm never going to be able to see her again... or at least til she's 18. Man... I miss her sooooooooooo much...