It's about Misty, of course!
So I talked to Misty on IM tonight for a long time.. She likes me. She likes me. She said she had a really good time last night at dinner. She said I looked good, and even admitted to checking out the skin peeking from my not-too-low-cut-but-carefully-chosen tank top.
I even admitted to her about having a crush on her in elementary school, to which she replied that I should have said something.. because she first started fooling around with girls at like 12. Can you say "years of missed opportunity" boys & girls? But that's what happens when you grow up in a house where girls liking girls is not something you talk about...
She said some very nice things about me & I blushed like a stoopid girl..
misty: bet u couldnt wait to get to work and jump online to see if i was there
me: i plead the 5th on the grounds that I might incriminate myself.
misty: oops there goes that confident thing
me: lol
me: like i said, you go ahead and be confident, then I don't have to be!
misty: lol
me: yeah, but you weren't on last night, so I just went to my livejournal and told my whole reading public all about our date. lol
misty: oh really
misty: did unow
me: yep
misty: and what di d they say
me: i dunno. haven't checked my comments yet.
misty: lol
misty: what ur fam say or mishawaka freind i KNOW u told um all
me: haven't talked to the girls in mishawaka yet
me: but rattled on & on to my parents, who seemed genuinely happy to see me happy.
misty: really well that is a good thing
me: altho, they did say I was way too fucking happy & cheerful today. lol. my aunt came over & asked if I was on something. lol
me: i think I'm telling you too much. I'll stop typing now
misty: no keep going its cute
misty: oh wait did u just blush
me:
me: actually yeah
She also admitted that it was the first time she'd ever done anything like a blind date, which it kind of was...
It was really cool that my family did actually seem happy for me, but they couldn't really help it.. I was just too damn happy to be ignored! *LOL* And I mentioned talking to my mom about how Sammi & Dino might respond to Misty. They basically said if she's my sister, she should be happy for me.. but since we're taking it slow to start I just might not mention it till it's something more real.
We talked about our likes & dislikes as far as appearance. It works out nicely for me because she doesn't like fingernail polish (which I never bother to wear because it won't stay on my fingers anyway) or a lot of makeup (and I haven't worn any in like 3 years). She also said I "have a good thing in my corner" because she doesn't like blondes & I have brown hair & blue eyes. Yeah me!
Like I said before, she doesn't smoke & she's never done drugs either. That's awesome because there are very few people I know who haven't at least tried something.
misty: what do u like romance wise
misty: what is corney what is real
me: ok. sorry. is retarded tonite..
misty: or do u wanna keep that to urself
me: what I like romance wise...
misty: and im not gonna go out and do things just cause u list them
misty: lol
me: lol
misty: i have my own brain
me: respect, paying attention to what i like, honest answers & honesty in general..
misty: cool
me: i like to feel like I'm important & that we're equals
misty: good
me: I've had too many in the past who put their friends above me, and that hurt
misty: understand that
me: um.. if we're together where there's a lot of ppl it's cool for you to talk & visit with you friends, but don't forget I'm there.. even if it's just something as simple as a glance from across the room and a smile
misty: thank god
misty: i hate being ignored
misty: my biggest pet peeve
misty: do not hang up on me or ignore me
misty: that infurriates me
misty:
misty: that is honestly the way to see me the most pissed
me: i've been known to hang up on ppl, but that was usually after i'm tired of having a screaming match with them on the phone
me: so no screaming, no hang ups. deal?
misty: lol
misty: i thinkbout it
misty: hehe
me:
me: i like little things... like if I'm out somewhere and I think of you and buy some stoopid little thing.. understand that it comes from my heart.. and it's not junk
misty: thats cute
me: I'm very emotional (about everything) so don't make fun of me if I'm crying over some damn movie I've seen 100 times
misty: me to
misty: everyone makes fun of me becasue im like thtat but lok like im butch
misty: lol
me: lol
me: i can't handle leaving in the middle of a fight. i have this irrational fear that if I'm fighting with someone i love and they storm out of the house, something terrible will happen to them & the last thing I'll have said is "fuck you" "no fuck you back!" i can't handle that. so if we're fighting & you need to walk away, just go in the other room.. but hopefully, we can skip the fighting part altogether
misty: lol
misty: put it this way
misty: if we were in the position where we were fighting u wouldnt be storming out at all
me: it's usually the other person storming out in a dramatic rage & me chasing them down
misty: well atleast id know ucare
me: i hate fighting at all.. i've done waaayyy too much of that
misty: no one ever comes to see why im upset id i did leave the room
me: oh, i'm terrible at leaving anything alone. if i ask "what's wrong" and you say "nothing" (which is the most annoying thing ever to me) I will follow you around till you tell me or i drive you insane, whichever comes first
misty: lol
misty: u r a lot like me
me: i hate keeping secrets. in case you can't already tell, i suck at keeping anything i'm feeling to myself and when i am an open book it hurts to feel like the other person is keeping everythign to themselves
me: yeah, i notices we're a lot a like
misty: lol
misty: no secrets
misty: well i hae things u dotn know but its not a secret
misty: just havent asked yet or soemthing
me: that's different. if it's stuff that's part of you life before we knew each other, then i'm not gonna know everything. altho, given enough time you'll probly know my whole damn life story.. lol
misty: lol
me: i mean like i've told you all this stuff about how i've been feeling & thinking about you and if you're like "thats cool" but don't share you feelings with me, it seems really unfair..
misty: well its not that im not sharing withu. its just new and i dont wanna jump the gun thats all.
misty: i did just get dumped lol
me: yes, i know that
misty: i wanna get rid of those hurtful feelings
me: good. i don't wanna start a relationship with someone who's not ready.
misty: exactly
misty: i do like u. is that better?
me: yes
misty: lol
misty: women
me: lol
misty: gotta hear all the gushy stuff
me: they don't get much girlier or gushier than me, deal with it
me: i'm just a big ball of squish
misty: lol
It's really cool, to me, that she realises she's still kinda hurting & she does like me, but wants to make sure she's ready for a relationship and at the same time wants to be my friend first. What a concept! Someone who is actually thinking things thru.. It's kinda crazy how much we seem to have in common...
I also can't help but think that if she didn't have a relationship with me in mind... why would she ask what I like in romance.... *drifts off to girly fluffy love thoughts*
I'm very excited about this.. I really think this could be something very special... something real...
Oh, yeah.. she also said "maybe could we do it again sometime?"
That would be a resounding "YES!"