somethin about that cool nebraska guy
Today has been really frustrating for me. I'm already sick of hearing about ND & this weekend is only the 1st game of football season. /o\ Whatever tho I will survive it. Idk why I have so much hate. I think it's mostly bc it's basically not okay for me not to give a shit about football. It's all OMG YOU LIVE IN SOUTH BEND WHICH IS WHERE NOTRE DAME IS SO OBV YOU LOVE ND RITE? RITE?! um... NO. Ugh. Yeah, that's prolly why. People around here pretty much act like there's something srsly wrong with me bc I don't care about football. So in my defense I just get all hater-ish about football. ):
I started listening properly to the Healing Perfectionism series I got from Robert Ohotto last night. (This man is a genius. For srs.) This is gonna be rough. He lists off all these things ways that perfectionism might manifest itself in your life... yeah.. I checked off everything on the list. /o\ Then he's talking about how much perfectionism can cost you in your life. Again, the list sounds a little too familiar. I suppose on the one hand, tho, that it's nice to finally have a cause for so many of the things that I do that make myself and other people crazy on a daily basis. It is comforting, in a way, to understand myself just a little better (mebbe a lot better) in some of the ways I behave. I can see now the difference between critique and criticism and I know a little too clearly which one I most frequently employ to get my point across. Why people at work might say that I'm a bully. Why I can get so bossy sometimes, thinking that I know the best way & if you'd just do what I tell you it would work out fine... This is not gonna be an easy battle I know, but I'm honestly looking forward to the work. I want to learn how to live with this. I want to understand where this comes from and how to integrate this perfectionist part of myself and find healthier ways to use it.
I started listening properly to the Healing Perfectionism series I got from Robert Ohotto last night. (This man is a genius. For srs.) This is gonna be rough. He lists off all these things ways that perfectionism might manifest itself in your life... yeah.. I checked off everything on the list. /o\ Then he's talking about how much perfectionism can cost you in your life. Again, the list sounds a little too familiar. I suppose on the one hand, tho, that it's nice to finally have a cause for so many of the things that I do that make myself and other people crazy on a daily basis. It is comforting, in a way, to understand myself just a little better (mebbe a lot better) in some of the ways I behave. I can see now the difference between critique and criticism and I know a little too clearly which one I most frequently employ to get my point across. Why people at work might say that I'm a bully. Why I can get so bossy sometimes, thinking that I know the best way & if you'd just do what I tell you it would work out fine... This is not gonna be an easy battle I know, but I'm honestly looking forward to the work. I want to learn how to live with this. I want to understand where this comes from and how to integrate this perfectionist part of myself and find healthier ways to use it.