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I'm starting to feel like... Anything that I do will not make it better. I mean. I am trying to fix my weight problem. I don't like working factory jobs so I'm going to go to school, but I also need to save up for a car. I also have a goal to own a house withing the next 10 years. But I think once I've accomplished these things... I will still feel the same, I will still feel like a loser, a bum, a nobody. Someone all my friends care about, but also feel bad for and secretly talk about behind my back. Sometimes I wish my dad succeeded in killing me when I was a baby. Then I wouldn't have hurt the people I did...