"I Love You" is all She heard: xsecond

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"I Love You" is all She heard

Aug 07, 2005 01:09

Hm ok. So. Tony (my sister's fiancee) is My hero. He fixed my CD burner... My life is complete. My sister bought me the Warped Tour Cd. Pretty sweet $7 for 50 songs is awesome. My nose hurts because last night I hit it on Marissa's bed. Not cool I have some sweet pics from Marissa's So. Yes.. My parents were gone this weekend off to Houghton Lake. So my sister was here all weekend. Sweet. Tomorrow will consist of cleaning Majorly. Hm oh yes. So I spent like $5 on this new face wash.. you know thinking..well since it was stupidly overpriced it might actually work!? hahahah right. I am breaking out. It's Gross. I'm like WTF!? I think I might e-mail the company and be like.. "dude Wtf. give me my $5 back you whore bags" It should be call Anti-nice skin wash. Freakin Fags. Maybe tomorrow If I get in this cleaning frenzy I clean the basement!! haha.. or least vaccum and dust. hm sheesh I'm sick of the spiders sharing my computer seat with me. Plus the extra allowance $$. I have come to the conclusion that I'm most likely addicted to pop. I need to stop. I need to stop with the pop. WATER is my friend....I should just stop eating all together. I could live for awhile on my body fat. I have underestimated the power of eating disorders. Last year when I saw on the movies and shit in school how these girls got into eating disorders I would think "How stupid..how could anyone stop eating.. I know I sure couldn't I'm Addicted to shit food" haha yea. Now that I think about how unhappy I am with my body and how the jean sizes just keep getting smaller and smaller and there's always this pressure to fit. I understand now. Alot this summer I have only eaten dinner. Now I have lost any weight due the Pop addiction. but still. It's not that I didn't want the food. but whenever I would get hungry and I'd go to raid the food cabinet for junk or something a pair of size one jeans would all of a sudden pop in my mind and I'd completely loose my appetite. Now being realistic here. Even if I lost all this weight I still wouldnt fit in a size one. It's just my natural size and my bones and everything. I'm not to worried about myself I'm just becoming more conscious of what I eat you know.. If I look in the fridge and there's you know a years supply of chocolate bars or theres apple's and stuff I go for the apples. I also understand how people get into bulimia.. It's from that DAMN diet food. Not saying I eat it... I'm not that desperate I just need to be more active but still I've tried stuff and It's like licking a cat's butt. It's like when people go to eat that They taste it and puke up everything they ate in the last 5 years. Okaty That was a joke.. but still diet food is gross and the only way I would live on it was if I got disgustingly large and I wouldn't let myself get that way.. I'll just keep the crappy diet food in mind like when I go to grab the second cookie I'll vision myself in 5 years eating diet food and flat out dieing....haha Diet has the word Die...coincidence? I think not. Ok enough on diet shit and losing weight. I just thought I'd tell you people that I now understand how people go into anorexia... And NO I don't have it and don't want to go to that extreme I am 75% happy with myself. and the other stuff I'm not happy with can be fixed with exercise and healthy stuff nothing uncalled for....Hah I feel gay for this entry.. so I'm gunna leave some sweet pictures for you people too laugh at or critisize or admire... whatever I don't care just comment :o]