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Well.. i havent gotten my period since Troy Daze which was Sept. 11th. 2 months ago. But i know its because of stress. I took another test, and im not pregnant or anything like that.
I dont know. A lot have things have happened latly. It sucks. Ive been more suicidal. i have "hope" in the chest right now. And yeah. Drews all worried about me and if i do anything more, hes going to tell either my parents or a counsler and he has enough evidence to have me sent away, and he said that if he has to, then he will. hes risking everything with us just so i could get better. But im not going to be pissed at him because i do need the help. I honestly do. ive been going insane, holding shit in. its the worse thing in the world. I just dont know anymore. Everything has gone terribly terribly wrong. Not to mention my mom and dad, at 10:00pm told my sister and i they are getting a divorice. They got the papers last night, and im moving in with my mom to an apartment. I dont want to leave megan. I can always go there whenever i need it. Shes right next door. So when i move out, i wont have that anymore which really sucks. Im not moving far though. Still going to be in Troy School District and going to Troy High.
Blah.. everything has just been so overwhelming and chaotic. But thats life, and i just have to deal with it ya know?
So yeah.. i dont know whats going on anymore and im terrified of whats going to happen next.
2 Sundays ago, i called drew during the night, and he was about to kill himself. He had drank a rediculous amount of alcohol, and took a shit load of pills. I was scrared shitless. He had to make himself throw all the shit up. So now not only am i waking up to wondering who survived yet another lonely night, but what else will go terribly wrong for me.
What next ya know? Ill ive heard was it gets better. Does it? I mean honestly.. what if this is as good as it gets? What will happen next?
Molly: I miss you so much. And yes your right, we all need to hang out ASAP
Megan: We live next door. lets take advantage of that. And yes today we are :) My house, after school :)
Meredith: I miss you too.. we need to hang out more too. and if i move into the somerset apartments or the ones across the street from them, holy shit. That would kick ass.
I dont know. A lot have things have happened latly. It sucks. Ive been more suicidal. i have "hope" in the chest right now. And yeah. Drews all worried about me and if i do anything more, hes going to tell either my parents or a counsler and he has enough evidence to have me sent away, and he said that if he has to, then he will. hes risking everything with us just so i could get better. But im not going to be pissed at him because i do need the help. I honestly do. ive been going insane, holding shit in. its the worse thing in the world. I just dont know anymore. Everything has gone terribly terribly wrong. Not to mention my mom and dad, at 10:00pm told my sister and i they are getting a divorice. They got the papers last night, and im moving in with my mom to an apartment. I dont want to leave megan. I can always go there whenever i need it. Shes right next door. So when i move out, i wont have that anymore which really sucks. Im not moving far though. Still going to be in Troy School District and going to Troy High.
Blah.. everything has just been so overwhelming and chaotic. But thats life, and i just have to deal with it ya know?
So yeah.. i dont know whats going on anymore and im terrified of whats going to happen next.
2 Sundays ago, i called drew during the night, and he was about to kill himself. He had drank a rediculous amount of alcohol, and took a shit load of pills. I was scrared shitless. He had to make himself throw all the shit up. So now not only am i waking up to wondering who survived yet another lonely night, but what else will go terribly wrong for me.
What next ya know? Ill ive heard was it gets better. Does it? I mean honestly.. what if this is as good as it gets? What will happen next?
Molly: I miss you so much. And yes your right, we all need to hang out ASAP
Megan: We live next door. lets take advantage of that. And yes today we are :) My house, after school :)
Meredith: I miss you too.. we need to hang out more too. and if i move into the somerset apartments or the ones across the street from them, holy shit. That would kick ass.