So this is odd...
As Jacklyn wrote... the end is near. Of summer, at least. But it feels as if a lot of things will end once school starts again. The free lifestyle... being able to wake up at 2 in the afternoon, and then go to bed at 5 in the morning the next day. Flirting with any guy you want to in my case, and trying hard not to fall in love... but having it happen anyway... that soon will end. Getting drunk every once in a while, smoking pot, for me... that's going to end once school begins. Or at least, that's what I'd planned on happening, just because school is going to be very important to me this year. And of course, during these last few days before summer ends, things start to happen... big, important, scary things. For me, it was band camp, meeting new people, and finding things out about people from my past. Things that could forever change my life, things that could make me happy again, or things that could rip me apart. And the decision will be hard to make... especially without the three of you. It always seems as if we make plans, and we do most of the time go through with them, but when it's all said and done we go back to life and somehow forget about each other. I'll admit that sometimes I don't even realize that I haven't talked to all of you in days... or even weeks. For God sakes, Jacklyn lives right nextdoor to me and I barely hang out with her. I miss our bond... that tight, supposedly inseperable bond that I treasured with my life. All of you understand me better than a lot of people ever have, and all of you have stayed by my side through all of it. Through me being a total bitch, and I know I have been really hard to deal with... through me losing someone that meant the world to me, even though most of the time I was with that person, I completely ignored you three... through the fun times at my cottage, or at Molly's house, or at Max and Erma's.
And for that, I am so grateful to all of you.
So I'm going to try my hardest to keep a promise this year... to keep updating this, and keep you all updated on my life... because I'm sure it's about to get totally crazy. And you three are pretty much the only people who really understand how my mind works... the only three people who will really know how to cope with me, and help me cope with myself.
Thank you guys, for everything... I love you all so much. Let's keep our bond, through the school year, and hopefully forever.
Jacklyn: Thank you for the letter at band camp. Like I told you, it put me to tears, and my whole table was astonished by it. I really love you, and I'm so sorry that our friendship hasn't been it's best this summer. I miss you. Thank you for helping me with my current problems too, your input has really helped.
Meredith: I hope you're having a good time in California, even though I think you get home today. I would kill to be there, I think California is where I'll find my true happiness. Did you run into my brother? I miss you, and I love you... and your christmas tree. :)
Molly: I miss you so much. It's incredible. I don't want to say I miss you more that the others, but sometimes I think I do, because I get to see them so much more than I see you. You've always been there, always been a wonderful friend since the first time I met you. I never want to lose our friendship, because it will probably kill me. Never will I forget the girl who first corrupted me... thanks for that babe.
To all: I miss you, I love you, penis, penis, penis, get piss drunk, and where'd it go, where'd it go? UP THE BUTT! :)
... megan ...
And for that, I am so grateful to all of you.
So I'm going to try my hardest to keep a promise this year... to keep updating this, and keep you all updated on my life... because I'm sure it's about to get totally crazy. And you three are pretty much the only people who really understand how my mind works... the only three people who will really know how to cope with me, and help me cope with myself.
Thank you guys, for everything... I love you all so much. Let's keep our bond, through the school year, and hopefully forever.
Jacklyn: Thank you for the letter at band camp. Like I told you, it put me to tears, and my whole table was astonished by it. I really love you, and I'm so sorry that our friendship hasn't been it's best this summer. I miss you. Thank you for helping me with my current problems too, your input has really helped.
Meredith: I hope you're having a good time in California, even though I think you get home today. I would kill to be there, I think California is where I'll find my true happiness. Did you run into my brother? I miss you, and I love you... and your christmas tree. :)
Molly: I miss you so much. It's incredible. I don't want to say I miss you more that the others, but sometimes I think I do, because I get to see them so much more than I see you. You've always been there, always been a wonderful friend since the first time I met you. I never want to lose our friendship, because it will probably kill me. Never will I forget the girl who first corrupted me... thanks for that babe.
To all: I miss you, I love you, penis, penis, penis, get piss drunk, and where'd it go, where'd it go? UP THE BUTT! :)
... megan ...