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I dont have much to say, i mean i guess i could but to all of you guys would meean jack shit....so i mine as well forget that.
I dont know what i think about anyone lately. I've been trying something new for awhile and i've been liking it too. i guess in a way its stop hanging much out with the friends i have now...dont get it wrong i love to hang out with my friends, but i want something..somehting i can do on my own. Im doing it for myself. I dont want to not do something anymore because i dont have someone else doing it with me, like i always have done in the past. If Mir didnt do it, i wouldnt. I always needed her by myside to do something cause i was scared, and i still am but im trying now to go on my own. If my friends wouldnt go up to guy with me, i wouldnt do it and i still probably wont...buts thats not what is concering me.
Im going to church now, trying to make new friends and get to know people. I dont care anymore about drinking or whatever...i just dont. I volunteer not just because I NEED IT, but because its good for me...its a chance to get away from everyone and enjoy it. I love to work at the Starbucks Cafe at my church, its a awesome enviroment and it is a chance for me to get to know people, which is always good.
I wish i was brave enough to walk to guys and just be like hey, but i cant. I never could...i just freeze up and runaway. I mean if i know the guy and i guess if im not really intrested in him that kinda way, then i guess i really dont care..but when my friends tell me i should talk to that guy something...i cant. It feels im going to shot down and be looked at like im some fat girl thats stupid and pathetic. Just what i need is for some cute guy to tell me im fat or atleast look at me like im one....Then people would say "Well, why dont you lose some weight, exercise." the thing is, i want someone to like me for who i am, but im scared abou tit, thinking that know one will like me for who i am. I think guys are missing out on me, i would make a good girlfriend, but it's their lost now.
Thats about tit.
<3
~Spanks
I dont know what i think about anyone lately. I've been trying something new for awhile and i've been liking it too. i guess in a way its stop hanging much out with the friends i have now...dont get it wrong i love to hang out with my friends, but i want something..somehting i can do on my own. Im doing it for myself. I dont want to not do something anymore because i dont have someone else doing it with me, like i always have done in the past. If Mir didnt do it, i wouldnt. I always needed her by myside to do something cause i was scared, and i still am but im trying now to go on my own. If my friends wouldnt go up to guy with me, i wouldnt do it and i still probably wont...buts thats not what is concering me.
Im going to church now, trying to make new friends and get to know people. I dont care anymore about drinking or whatever...i just dont. I volunteer not just because I NEED IT, but because its good for me...its a chance to get away from everyone and enjoy it. I love to work at the Starbucks Cafe at my church, its a awesome enviroment and it is a chance for me to get to know people, which is always good.
I wish i was brave enough to walk to guys and just be like hey, but i cant. I never could...i just freeze up and runaway. I mean if i know the guy and i guess if im not really intrested in him that kinda way, then i guess i really dont care..but when my friends tell me i should talk to that guy something...i cant. It feels im going to shot down and be looked at like im some fat girl thats stupid and pathetic. Just what i need is for some cute guy to tell me im fat or atleast look at me like im one....Then people would say "Well, why dont you lose some weight, exercise." the thing is, i want someone to like me for who i am, but im scared abou tit, thinking that know one will like me for who i am. I think guys are missing out on me, i would make a good girlfriend, but it's their lost now.
Thats about tit.
<3
~Spanks