Guess who's back?!
Yea yea yea. I know, I know. I haven't updated my livejournal in about two months. I think its just due to the fact that I'm too lazy to open up livejournal and type what I did every week. I had an awesome time in Disney, Missy's Sweet 16 was muchos, muchos fun, I love Pac, and Jill's surprise party was kick ass. Now it's time for the babble.
:: Orientation day was definitely the worst day of my summer. Some of you know why, others have no idea what I'm talking about. All I'll say without naming names is that I realized that the friends that I have been hanging out with since lastr year (most of them anyway) suck at being true friends. There were some indefinent signs sophomore year that I wasn't with the right people but on orientation I realized that I needed new friends. I never thought that friends could make you feel like such crap before. I know that as a kid you're brought up to know "sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me" but that is so untrue. Even though you know the things people say aren't true, you still come home and cry about it because it's coming from people you have confided in for a year and now everything is gone. It's like you wasted a year with people who weren't worth it. It's people like that, that make kids have low self-esteem and not like themselves when they should really just say fuck you. I guess I never really changed from being made fun of, I think I'm just an easy target because I'm too nice to people and tell everybody everything. That's definitely changing this year. ::
:: Pac this year is sooo kick ass. The fall play is Fools, by Neil Simon. Myself, Vinny, Allie, Kt, Kaz, Jill, John, Saggy, Victoria, and Denise are the entire cast. Mrs. Addison is the best director ever! She's too cool. This past week, I think it was Monday, the teachers had a meeting til 3:15 so that left us 10 in the auditorium for 45minutes with nothing to do. We all decided to play tag, hide and go seek, and man hunt in the auditorium. It was sooo much fun. We all felt like we were 5. But then Mrs. Addison walked in on one of our games and starting screaming, but none of us cared because we had way too much fun. Then we spent yesterday talking about the debates and then we were doing impressions and making fun of teachers infront of Mrs. Addison. And she was joining in and doing some impressions of her own. It was too cool. This year Pac is going to be awesome. ::
:: Yesterday was Jill's surprise Sweet 16 party. She was so surprised when she walked in the door, it was too cute. We all bumbarded her with pictures. It was like we were paparazzi. I had so much fun at that party, but at the same time I was kinda sad because I realized that these people, my friends, are so awesome and are the type of people you're suppossed to be friends with but I rarely, if ever hang out with them. They are the type of people you can be a complete idiot with and they wouldn't care. It made me sad that I'm not as close to all of them as I would like to be. Last nite felt like we were all the best of friends and we just had a blast and I wish we could do that every weekend. I want friends like them, I want to hang out with them but I'm not the type of person to just be like hey, guys so I don't have any real friends, wanna hang out? I don't think so. I'm extremely shy when it comes to meeting people or becoming vunerable in any situation. They are all good people and I can only hope to hang out with them again more often ::
I hope everybody enjoyed this nice, long, new update. Until next time xoxo
:: Orientation day was definitely the worst day of my summer. Some of you know why, others have no idea what I'm talking about. All I'll say without naming names is that I realized that the friends that I have been hanging out with since lastr year (most of them anyway) suck at being true friends. There were some indefinent signs sophomore year that I wasn't with the right people but on orientation I realized that I needed new friends. I never thought that friends could make you feel like such crap before. I know that as a kid you're brought up to know "sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me" but that is so untrue. Even though you know the things people say aren't true, you still come home and cry about it because it's coming from people you have confided in for a year and now everything is gone. It's like you wasted a year with people who weren't worth it. It's people like that, that make kids have low self-esteem and not like themselves when they should really just say fuck you. I guess I never really changed from being made fun of, I think I'm just an easy target because I'm too nice to people and tell everybody everything. That's definitely changing this year. ::
:: Pac this year is sooo kick ass. The fall play is Fools, by Neil Simon. Myself, Vinny, Allie, Kt, Kaz, Jill, John, Saggy, Victoria, and Denise are the entire cast. Mrs. Addison is the best director ever! She's too cool. This past week, I think it was Monday, the teachers had a meeting til 3:15 so that left us 10 in the auditorium for 45minutes with nothing to do. We all decided to play tag, hide and go seek, and man hunt in the auditorium. It was sooo much fun. We all felt like we were 5. But then Mrs. Addison walked in on one of our games and starting screaming, but none of us cared because we had way too much fun. Then we spent yesterday talking about the debates and then we were doing impressions and making fun of teachers infront of Mrs. Addison. And she was joining in and doing some impressions of her own. It was too cool. This year Pac is going to be awesome. ::
:: Yesterday was Jill's surprise Sweet 16 party. She was so surprised when she walked in the door, it was too cute. We all bumbarded her with pictures. It was like we were paparazzi. I had so much fun at that party, but at the same time I was kinda sad because I realized that these people, my friends, are so awesome and are the type of people you're suppossed to be friends with but I rarely, if ever hang out with them. They are the type of people you can be a complete idiot with and they wouldn't care. It made me sad that I'm not as close to all of them as I would like to be. Last nite felt like we were all the best of friends and we just had a blast and I wish we could do that every weekend. I want friends like them, I want to hang out with them but I'm not the type of person to just be like hey, guys so I don't have any real friends, wanna hang out? I don't think so. I'm extremely shy when it comes to meeting people or becoming vunerable in any situation. They are all good people and I can only hope to hang out with them again more often ::
I hope everybody enjoyed this nice, long, new update. Until next time xoxo