Yeah, because I don't think they'd understand.
sometimes, you can be friends with some people for years.
you even considered them to be your best friends, or at least, your close friends.
you think you know them well enough about certain things.
then you realize that you never really know them...
...until certain incidents happen that put their characters and your character into test.
then you realize....
that you don't know them at all.
you don't know what they hide behind those smiles.
you don't know their greatest fears, deepest sorrows and joy.
but within that one moment, everything is revealed.
then you begin to think.
you can never really know anyone.
no matter how long you've known them.
you feel so helpless.
it's like suddenly your principles are being challenged.
there are certain things that have to happen in life... that will make you completely lose yourself.
at that point, then you believe that to have faith in a constant being in this everchanging world is essential.
because to have faith in changing beings without harming oneself may even be an impossible task.
then you realize that all these while, you haven't been running to God when all else fails. You still continue to run to the changing beings, the very beings who failed you at the first place.
Sure.
The world is not how I expected it to be.
I have been believing in things that this world may not be able to fulfill.
...that the people in this world cannot fulfill.
I don't know where I go from here.
One thing I know is that what happened, happened.
The past is behind me.
Time is passing by as I continue to find peace in God.
"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive"
~Goo Goo Dolls~
you even considered them to be your best friends, or at least, your close friends.
you think you know them well enough about certain things.
then you realize that you never really know them...
...until certain incidents happen that put their characters and your character into test.
then you realize....
that you don't know them at all.
you don't know what they hide behind those smiles.
you don't know their greatest fears, deepest sorrows and joy.
but within that one moment, everything is revealed.
then you begin to think.
you can never really know anyone.
no matter how long you've known them.
you feel so helpless.
it's like suddenly your principles are being challenged.
there are certain things that have to happen in life... that will make you completely lose yourself.
at that point, then you believe that to have faith in a constant being in this everchanging world is essential.
because to have faith in changing beings without harming oneself may even be an impossible task.
then you realize that all these while, you haven't been running to God when all else fails. You still continue to run to the changing beings, the very beings who failed you at the first place.
Sure.
The world is not how I expected it to be.
I have been believing in things that this world may not be able to fulfill.
...that the people in this world cannot fulfill.
I don't know where I go from here.
One thing I know is that what happened, happened.
The past is behind me.
Time is passing by as I continue to find peace in God.
"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive"
~Goo Goo Dolls~