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everything is messy. nothing is really very clear right now. but this is not a new feeling.
im eating popcorn. and i love underoath.
last night i had religion. my mom woke me up at 648 and i went into thr bathroom and as if i was going to taske a shower, and then i realized that it was 648 AT NIGHT. im a LOSERRRR. i got home and talked to matt, then he hung up on me and supposedly waited before he caleld me back, but i was talking to courtney, so he couldnt get through. i dont know what to really say about that except i was confused.
i love this book lyndsy warnes lent me. its called "STOP PRETENDING: what happened when my big sister went crazy" its really interesting. all prose and very well written. i lent her my copy of "the perks of being a wallflower" and instructed her to read the "I FEEL INFINITE" part first.
matt said he wont call me tonight. i am sad about that. really really sad. and i am sad about some other things to. i think i will go lay down soon. i had a long day.
i crave it.
meghan and i went to wendy's and i got a huge frosty. but i didnt really get to finish it. but i thought its worth sharing. maybe itll get a comment or two.
i just want to know youre out there. and youre listening.
because if you knew, you would want to know too
i think ill maybe go watch shrek two. morgan courtney and i are having a slumber party tomorrow night so i must rest for that.
my hands are like ice.
i saw/felt a lot of things today. especially right after 9th period.
i felt myself feeel worse than i had in a while.
i saw someone i had a lot of respect for smoking.
i saw a girl walking hand in hand with her boyfriend.
i saw a girl trying to explain something to ber exboyfried and i felt myself feel really bad for her.
i felt the leaves crunch under my feet, and i knew how they felt. they have hit rock bottom.
i saw my "few good days" melt away faster than butter in an oven.
i felt myself longing for my dad and his comforting words.
i felt myself rub my necklace hoping my mom could give me a bit of strength to fight it this time.
i saw myself talking to myself while walking up my drive way and telling my brother that i was okay.
oh well. i am thirsty. and hungry. and sad. i will go eat all my problems away and then get surgery, it sounds easy enough. good night.
im eating popcorn. and i love underoath.
last night i had religion. my mom woke me up at 648 and i went into thr bathroom and as if i was going to taske a shower, and then i realized that it was 648 AT NIGHT. im a LOSERRRR. i got home and talked to matt, then he hung up on me and supposedly waited before he caleld me back, but i was talking to courtney, so he couldnt get through. i dont know what to really say about that except i was confused.
i love this book lyndsy warnes lent me. its called "STOP PRETENDING: what happened when my big sister went crazy" its really interesting. all prose and very well written. i lent her my copy of "the perks of being a wallflower" and instructed her to read the "I FEEL INFINITE" part first.
matt said he wont call me tonight. i am sad about that. really really sad. and i am sad about some other things to. i think i will go lay down soon. i had a long day.
i crave it.
meghan and i went to wendy's and i got a huge frosty. but i didnt really get to finish it. but i thought its worth sharing. maybe itll get a comment or two.
i just want to know youre out there. and youre listening.
because if you knew, you would want to know too
i think ill maybe go watch shrek two. morgan courtney and i are having a slumber party tomorrow night so i must rest for that.
my hands are like ice.
i saw/felt a lot of things today. especially right after 9th period.
i felt myself feeel worse than i had in a while.
i saw someone i had a lot of respect for smoking.
i saw a girl walking hand in hand with her boyfriend.
i saw a girl trying to explain something to ber exboyfried and i felt myself feel really bad for her.
i felt the leaves crunch under my feet, and i knew how they felt. they have hit rock bottom.
i saw my "few good days" melt away faster than butter in an oven.
i felt myself longing for my dad and his comforting words.
i felt myself rub my necklace hoping my mom could give me a bit of strength to fight it this time.
i saw myself talking to myself while walking up my drive way and telling my brother that i was okay.
oh well. i am thirsty. and hungry. and sad. i will go eat all my problems away and then get surgery, it sounds easy enough. good night.