thoughts

[xscarlettz]

I'm learning more and more about myself.
more and more about love
how fast things can change.
How people can act ways you never thought they would.
I feel alone right now.
Empty.
Maybe everyone feels that way sometimes,
but this is so unexpected.
I have tried so hard this past year
to be good
to be the best at everything,
and perfect.
I have never been so committed to another in my life.
Never had anything so beautiful.
Love is so fragile,
why?
How do you keep your love as strong as it needs to be. How do you make sure it doesn't fall to pieces?
How do you know if your the one for the one that's the one for you?
Who made the most incredible feeling in the world, be able to turn into the most hurtful pain in your heart, in the change of just one single second?
I have never tried so hard
and I can't try harder than this.
This is me, this is all I can do.
I offered it, and if it all falls apart, theres nothing I can do.
I'm scared.
My heart has been set on so many things.
I broke down tonight.

I know better than to take things for granted.

I'm just scared
of the thought of losing everything
I've ever wanted.