single. =]]
things have been interesting to say the least..
i am single once more but i am feeling really really good about it. i always seem to find the dysfunctional ones, haha. its alright though because i consider her a learning experience.. i've always found myself with people who are mentally off, in a bunch of different ways.
from now on, though.. its just going to be me, myself, and i. =]] &&i am really loving the sound of that. sure, being in a relationship is lovely.. but only when things work the way they ought to. i just hope laura gets her shit together; her communication issues, her drinking issues, privacy issues, etc taken care of so it doesn't effect her the rest of her life.
what's even stranger is that i feel amazing and unscathed from this. i am not really upset, i haven't really cried or felt the urge to cry. in a weird way its almost like, its just laura. from all the stupid bullshit and arguments she's put me through i guess thats where it stands. even listening to "our song" makes me happy.. because i feel freed. i feel like, gosh its really hard to put into words. i almost dont even want to admit that was our song because when i listen to it, i dont think of her... &&i dont think i ever really did. i actually feel relieved, like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
delta is still panning out really well for me, i love it ever so much. =]] i am smoking cigarettes again, quitting and i have yet to agree for more than a few months.. but its alright because i don't think i am ready to quit just yet.
hmm.. im going to go play some call of duty nazi zombies... =]]
ttfn
Jenny BRUTAL.♥
i am single once more but i am feeling really really good about it. i always seem to find the dysfunctional ones, haha. its alright though because i consider her a learning experience.. i've always found myself with people who are mentally off, in a bunch of different ways.
from now on, though.. its just going to be me, myself, and i. =]] &&i am really loving the sound of that. sure, being in a relationship is lovely.. but only when things work the way they ought to. i just hope laura gets her shit together; her communication issues, her drinking issues, privacy issues, etc taken care of so it doesn't effect her the rest of her life.
what's even stranger is that i feel amazing and unscathed from this. i am not really upset, i haven't really cried or felt the urge to cry. in a weird way its almost like, its just laura. from all the stupid bullshit and arguments she's put me through i guess thats where it stands. even listening to "our song" makes me happy.. because i feel freed. i feel like, gosh its really hard to put into words. i almost dont even want to admit that was our song because when i listen to it, i dont think of her... &&i dont think i ever really did. i actually feel relieved, like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
delta is still panning out really well for me, i love it ever so much. =]] i am smoking cigarettes again, quitting and i have yet to agree for more than a few months.. but its alright because i don't think i am ready to quit just yet.
hmm.. im going to go play some call of duty nazi zombies... =]]
ttfn
Jenny BRUTAL.♥